I’ve found myself at a V in my road today.
Something quite profound happened today but in a small way as it often does, and I’ve had to choose how I cope with it.
The choice ( and I’m not apologising for how vague I am being) is between lying to myself or facing the music with a nod and a word of thanks.
I’ve chosen the latter, without excuses and bullshit.
I am flawed like we all are.
Now this sounds all very mysterious
It isn’t really, I’m just protecting myself from embarrassment, so the full story remains where it is.
Dealing with a proper embarrassment is a life long trauma for me.
It has the ability to crucify
And stems from a childhood where a mother salved her own embarrassment by picking of those exhibited by her children.
Teeth and wounds
Wounds and teeth.
I’m sad , I can’t be frivolous today.
I’ve made the girls I work with laugh tonight as I normally do
But it has been a serious day all told.
I will leave you with this silly video, don’t be too irritated Andrew xx