I’m not the only internet sensation in Trelawnyd . I suspect the Trelawnyd Male voice choir has a following as well as The Trelawnyd Community Group. And TikTok is represented quite ably by Kelda I’m only a lonely person wanting to tell someone about their day
The Snake
A snake bites you out of nowhere and instead of immediately trying to suck out the poison, instead of rushing to heal yourself, instead of getting to safety, you chase after the snake.You run after it.
You are trying to find out why it bit you!
You want to tell it that you didn’t deserve that!
You want an apology.
You want an explanation, instead of thinking My God , I’ve been bitten. I’ve been poisoned, I need to fix this right away or it’s going to kill me
Right now you are staring at this snake thinking Seriously , why would you do this to me? I didn’t deserve that !
You are arguing with a snake!
Like the snake suddenly owes you honesty.
Like it owes you closure!
While its venom is spreading through your body with every second you waste. That’s exactly what we do with people that hurt us.
We chase explanations instead of just accepting that the bite has already happened and we have to save ourselves first. We think if we can just understand the why the pain will somehow hurt less, that if we can get them to explain themselves, we will feel better about it . But the truth is, knowing the reason doesn’t remove the venom from your body.
It never has.
Some snakes bite because that is what snakes do. Not because you deserved it , not because you caused it, not because you could have stopped it if you had been a better version of yourself.
Healing begins when you stop chasing the snake.
You don’t need an explaination to heal.
You need acceptance.
You need distance,
And you need the strength to walk away.
Before the poison finishes what it started.
Cat Fight
I’m understanding the cat rift just a little more
Last night Bun (well I think it was Bun) - on the chair back, challenged Weaver ( on the floor) to a fight
Roger quickly intervened and separated the sisters quite effectively but I sense the whole thing is about power and belonging ….its a Game of Thrones a feline version
Roger is beside himself with the stress of it all
Mary couldn’t give a flying f8ck……
At 11pm it was still going on
So I stood up and yelled into the room
“Sort yourselves out you fuckers”🐈⬛🐈⬛
The winner will stay …
And I went to bed
Today I’m up and early, counselling clients between 12 and 6 pm . Before that I met Polly for breakfast
She gave me that lovely Lino print
Chess
I played chess last night online
My adversary was called Fred and went by the nickname of Farmpop60.
He won the first game, I the second
Then he told me he was tired and could we play the decider another time.
We ended up chatting online, with him emphasising his Os
He was a divorcee, two years older than I . He lived on a farm west of Minnesota’s Boundary waters
He had stage four cancer and lived alone and had one daughter in the forces based in Alaska
The farm was overseen by an neighbour farmer and was predominantly orchard focused.
He drank too much rum, hidden in ice cold milk and survived only because of the goodwill of his neighbours.
He supported Trump
And he laughed at himself for assuming I had been divorced from a woman rather than a man.
I don’t know much about Wales he admitted though he liked the film How Green was My Valley
We both admired Walter Pidgeon
“ There’s a moose Bull in the yard” he told me before he said his goodbyes
Thank The Lord
The hot spell broke in Llandudno around 4 in the morning
You could feel it kind of snap back to Welsh time from a muggy sort of Spanish summer like the twang of an old lady’s knicker elastic and the three nurses on duty and the patients with their relatives seemed to let out a collective sigh of relief.
I’ve just slept eight hours solid , waking only to the village ice cream van playing The Third Man as it tinkered by.
It’s my sister Ann’s birthday today and already I’ve missed a deadline to drive down to see her. I’ve just had time to write this , shower and dress. Back to work tonight
I will see her tomorrow
There were two cats in the house yesterday morning . Now we are back to one. the pattern seems to be Bun only returns home on a Saturday for a visit. I still haven’t found who her second owners are.
Old Friends
It was an easy night, uncluttered with too much conversation and seriousness , the ideal panacea to the seriousness of health issues and the isolation of the heatwave
Treat night
My lovely Spanish lisping choir is lovely in this Asian movie anthem ….how much fun…..it’s Friday and I’m meeting Chic Eleanor for breakfast then I’m off to Llandudno for an evening with my old York psychiatric nurse friends Tracey and Ally complete with night out at the Esplanade Hotel !
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