Going Gently

Gwahoddiad

I have a treat for you all, please invest in two minutes of your day

Click on the link below to hear the Trelawnyd Male Voice Choir singing the hymn Gwahoddiad

It’s sublime

https://youtu.be/ouThtahSTkk?si=CFsNA7LK2YQ6ITVr

The Filipino nurse was very efficient and kind but let slip that I was an “ anxious” patient as we waited for the doctor to change my catheter. He was brusque and I had to pin him down to what the urological plan was, which essentially was to wait to see the consultant at outpatients.

At least I had the consultants name this time and the assertion the appointment would be “soon”

I saw the words “anxious patient” scribbled in the notes and questioned the value judgement

“The first time the catheter was put in was incredibly painful” I noted “I wasn’t just anxious , I was in pain”

But it was obvious that they thought I was a bit of a baby

I’ve come home with some haematuria which should clear

And feel somewhat washed out

Hey ho

Thank You

Sometimes a little kind gesture goes a long way

Lee ( yes she of the potty mouth from Third Avenue New York ) sent me a money gift yesterday ,

It was sent with the proviso that it be spent on “gin and scotch eggs”

Or a “ King Filipe lookalike”

And it was sent with love and “ the neediness of an old broad on her third dirty martini”

My old Gladiator blog follower is a star

And a true friend 😀

Liars

This is a muse whilst at counselling work , not a personal reflection

Never ask a liar why they lied!

Because to explain the first lie they usually have to create another one and before long the story becomes so complicated that everything can no longer be remembered .

This is how deception works.

It does not stay small,

It grows,

It changes details ,

It re works conversations

And eventually the liar may even start believing the version they created.

Because accepting the truth would mean accepting responsibility .

So stop waiting for honesty from someone who has ready shown you that protecting their image means more than protecting your trust.

Closure does not always come from their confession, sometimes closure comes from recognising the patterns!

accepting what their behaviour has revealed

And walking away

News

Two cats now remain at Bwthyn y llan and have been here for the past week. I’ve finally defleaed them both!
After stopping one of my prescribed medications on my own diagnosis, my fat ankle and leg oedema is receeding nicely ( I’ve not mentioned this painfully irritating health scare before!):- a week ago my legs resembled Shelley Winters’ in the Poseidon Adventure…I’ve been so tired with this issue over the past few weeks !
My catheter gets changed on Thursday , and I finally get to know my urological treatment plan then, this will help with my mood which has been a little low as of late
My trip to Liverpool did me good yesterday. I’m very aware that I’ve been hiding away over the past few months. I’m determined not to continue in the same vein ,after the catheter is changed . But I suspect there’s not going to be a quick resolution to all this😥
Just keep swimming John
Keep on swimming xxx

Weaver , watching Roger

Moulin Rouge

90 well know songs in one musical, walk the moon included ( my favourite dance song) and more camp to shake a stick at , Janet and I , enjoyed Moulin Rouge in Liverpool , but didn’t fall in love it it .

Nate Landskroner was a strong Christian and stole every song from the lovely Verity Thompson ( as the doomed Santine), perhaps we needed a few wines ( so many were heavily drinking even on a Monday nite)

And the massive Empire Theatre ( The biggest in the Uk catering for over 2,300 people) was suitably decorated with a giant windmill and thirty foot elephant !

Look closely I have a bogie ! 😥

Musical Interlude

Two uneventful night shifts led to me seeing no one of note to talk to, save Cameron’s Mum who had recently lost one of her pugs.

I was late for work, but I want to hear the whys and wherefores of a much loved pet.

I’ve known Lorna over twenty years

I’ve not long got up, and am quietly drinking coffee before I shower and titivate myself. I’m taking Janet to see Moulin Rouge in Liverpool tonight . It was a Christmas gift