A Dusk Meeting

Dusk yesterday.
I knew the Lady by the field gate.
Not well, but we know each other’s name and houses and are friends on Facebook 
She had been crying and was trying hard to hide it
I hadn’t noticed because Roger was pulling at his lead and only realised after she had brought it to my attention and was hurrying a little embarrassed. 
She said something about a family member before moving on and I presumed her tears were tears of grief
Sometimes I think I see too much grief
Too much at work, certainly.
In my counselling I see loss in its many forms.
Loss of roles, loss of employment, of home, of loved ones and of relationships.
Losses of youth, of hope, of abilities to cope in life.

In my personal counselling with my old Irish sage,
I have explored my own grief reactions 
And have realised all too well that it never really goes away
You just live with it more peaceably 

Grief, is love which has no where to go

I used to be like Snow White , but I drifted


 Musical Nostalgia is back in the cinema and Snow White ( looking rather like Audrey Tatou in Amelie) looks to be another hit for Disney. Rachel Zegler has a wonderfully pure voice for the role

A restful uneventful day here. I’m on one night shift ( a favour for a friend) then on two weeks holiday!!!!

Yayyyyyy

Stiffy

 I have been counselling clients for much of the day 
But went into my surgery to see the practice nurse about my feet first thing. 
She was happy about them but stated I would be going for “ a proper” check soon as well as a routine eye exam.
She’s a jolly-hockey sticks character who also brightly asked
Any Trouble with the old erections?”
“I might have trouble right now “ I replied honestly
Hey ho

Chappell Roan - Pink Pony Club


And let’s all take a big breath
lol
I love this 
Busy day, 
Roger is licking my feet
In front of the fire 

Trump This IS a Statesman !

 


I’m working a long day today , so will leave you this video at dawn before I go.
Integrity and gravitas


Quite lovely


She brought the house down ! Bloody marvellous 

My personal counsellor asked me if I wanted feedback today on my “progress”
Of course I said yes
You are lighter and brighter and I’m so glad” she shared, her eyes twinkling in the firelight of her apartment
I loved the way she described her counselling style
“ I will walk beside you on your journey” she said

I have four more sessions with her, and then she retires
I’m her very last client after fifty one years in harness

Neighbour Totoro


Weigh ins are on a Monday morning.
Like an old boxer before a fight I stand on the kitchen scales in my under crackers
And pray I’m the desired weight.
This week I’ve lost 6.2 lbs 
There’s a lot to be said for a diabetic diet.

I have a busy week before going to see Nu next Monday
I’ve been distant with her which has been related to me not feeling well, a complicated reaction to a physical malaise. 
I’ve felt ashamed at my weight gain, my lethargy and my need to hide away and
She has been patient with me, just waiting for me to return or not, without drama or guile
So I’m returning to London next Monday to see her and to take her to the theatre.

In between now and seeing her, I’m busy. Today after taking Trendy Carol’s Hubby for a hospital appointment, I’m going to my counselling centre to complete the miles of paperwork demanded of us “ counsellors”. Tomorrow I’m in University then I’m having my personal counselling later afternoon. My 80 year old counsellor has been ill since Christmas, only bouncing back to work this week.
I’ve missed her Irish brogue and quiet wit, and now have the energy to climb the steep stairs to her cold apartment where we sit infront of the fire and talk.
Wednesday I’m working a full day shift at the hospice and Thursday I’m seeing clients in MIND.
Friday I’m on a one off night shift, a favour to a colleague

Monday we are going to see the return of My Neighbour Totoro which wowed the west end over two years ago now, it will be lovely if we enjoy it. But theatre doesn’t matter much really, it’s Nu , who I’m going to see