Weigh ins are on a Monday morning.
Like an old boxer before a fight I stand on the kitchen scales in my under crackers
And pray I’m the desired weight.
This week I’ve lost 6.2 lbs
There’s a lot to be said for a diabetic diet.
I have a busy week before going to see Nu next Monday
I’ve been distant with her which has been related to me not feeling well, a complicated reaction to a physical malaise.
I’ve felt ashamed at my weight gain, my lethargy and my need to hide away and
She has been patient with me, just waiting for me to return or not, without drama or guile
So I’m returning to London next Monday to see her and to take her to the theatre.
In between now and seeing her, I’m busy. Today after taking Trendy Carol’s Hubby for a hospital appointment, I’m going to my counselling centre to complete the miles of paperwork demanded of us “ counsellors”. Tomorrow I’m in University then I’m having my personal counselling later afternoon. My 80 year old counsellor has been ill since Christmas, only bouncing back to work this week.
I’ve missed her Irish brogue and quiet wit, and now have the energy to climb the steep stairs to her cold apartment where we sit infront of the fire and talk.
Wednesday I’m working a full day shift at the hospice and Thursday I’m seeing clients in MIND.
Friday I’m on a one off night shift, a favour to a colleague
Monday we are going to see the return of My Neighbour Totoro which wowed the west end over two years ago now, it will be lovely if we enjoy it. But theatre doesn’t matter much really, it’s Nu , who I’m going to see
Make new friends but keep the old. One is silver the other gold. Congrats on the weight loss!
ReplyDeleteI enjoy these “ reflective” posts . You know yourself very well, and you describe those insights with the minimum of words
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You put into words just what I was thinking Lee
DeleteSeems that the line of your life graph has taken a dip in recent days. Seeing your old friend Nu should give you a necessary boost. Sharing your most private stuff with her will again prove that "a problem shared is a problem halved". Chin up old chap!
ReplyDeleteThe background feeling unwell, has a much wider impact than the physical being. We/I am glad you are feeling better.
ReplyDeleteNu is a true friend who doesn't demand anything from you other than friendship. She obviously realises (possibly better than you) that you have needed time and space. She might not recognise the slim man who greets her! The weight loss seems to be giving you a bit of a spring in your step! Well done!
ReplyDeletePS I think most of us have been there with the scales. Cut finger and toe nails and trim hair. Strip down to the bare (!) minimum and breathe in! If only it was that simple. Sigh! xx
Glad you are feeling better and ready to get out with friends again. Keep up the good work!
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the weight loss. Hard to lose weight, but so easy to gain. You are keeping yourself busy. Glad you are going to see Nu. Friends are tonic for the soul. Cali
ReplyDeleteSeeing Nu and enjoying your time in London will be great.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you are feeling better, and your weight loss is very impressive.
You are diabetic and your sugars were high, of course you were lethargic John. I wonder if men struggle more with their body's giving them a hard time than women. Women have to contend with periods, PMS, babies (not everyone), and menopause. Our bodies give us the royal run round at times, but maybe that helps us to have more compassion for when things go off the rails? I don't know. I shouldn't assume every women's journey is the same. Anyway, I'm glad you're feeling better, glad you have more energy, and glad you are going to see your friend Nu.
ReplyDeleteYour weight loss is impressive and I am sure it will give you a much needed boost seeing Nu.
ReplyDeleteI always look at weight loss and gain as potatoes. 6.2 pounds is a lot of potatoes! I’m trying to gain back muscle weight. Last year at this time I weighed over 13 stone and wanted to trim off a couple of pounds. I now weigh a tad over 12 stone and my clothes are all loose. So glad you’ll be with Nu. I’ve always loved that friendship.
ReplyDeleteWell done on the continued weight loss! The week should fly with all you have packed into it.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your visit with Nu!
Hugs to you and head scratches to Bun, Weaver, Mary & Roger.
Congrats on the weight loss. Hope the new healthier diet is still full of delicious tasting foods.
ReplyDeleteAs one who deals with lupus fatigue daily and non-restful sleep nightly (why nap?), I can say that fatigue can really get you down. It's annoying to accomplish so little because you need to sit. On the other hand, I read a lot and love that!
Seeing Nu and enjoying the theater together will be just the tonic you need. It's been too long.
Big hugs!
You are to be commended for that weight loss. Enjoy your weekend with Nu. Your posts sound more alive these days. Before they'd begun to take on a weary plodding tone, as if you were simply getting through your days. I am glad to see this change.
ReplyDeleteIt's a shame the weight loss is treated as a public shameful humiliating weekly ordeal, instead of a private celebration of success. You are doing great, uge weight loss in short time. Positive vibes. Be proud!
ReplyDeleteGive your good friend Nu a big, BIG hug!
ReplyDeleteHappy that Nu waited for you to come out the other end. Your wait loss is mighty impressive. Hugs. Gigi
ReplyDeleteSo glad that you are feeling able to see Nu again. You are making good progress in your new self care and Nu understands. Don’t let blessings go unrecognized. Have a good trip.
ReplyDeleteGood to see you back with a spring in your step.
ReplyDeleteAgree with Lee, your self reflective posts are interesting and probably make some of your readers do a bit of the same.
I loved "My Neighbor, Totoro," for what it's worth -- but you're right, Nu will make it fun no matter what. :)
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