'We will meet again'


These two things have been revolving in my head rent free today.
Today one of my patients talked at length about how much the Queen’s We Will Meet Again had affected her a couple of years ago now and we unpicked just how powerful her speech was when I served her a large port before lunch..it was a conversation that I should have had one too ..lol

Radio 2 caught me unawares too when I drove to work as Zoe Ball played somber music with hushed tones. 
When she played this next song by Beth Neilsen Chapman, it caught me totally unawares as I drove past Colwyn Bay and I had to stop briefly on the Prom to have a bit of a cry 




Tribute

 I don't want to over egg the pudding but this tribute, especially his very last line, moved me greatly





The Queen

 


I’ve been to a seminar on medically led assisted dying today. It was stimulating and thought provoking 
I was going to blog about it but I see that the Queen is poorly.
Several of my friends have texted me 
They know I’m a royalist 
The Queen is clearly dying
It’s all rather sad 

Postscript
Like many Brits of my age, my family has grown up with the Queen. My parents and grandparents were die hard, post war Royalists, and their lives always seemed inexplicably linked with the Royal family in so many ways. 
Her death links with memories and life events of my parents and grandparents today. Of days past and of memories sixty years in the making.

I’m guessing many of us will have this collective emptiness and sadness today. 

Today has been quite profound 
I’ve just heard Liz Truss say 
God Save The King 





Ladies Who Lunch

 


I met my friend Colin in Chester and we watched the cormorants on the Dee for an age, before the clouds blew over from Wales. 
We had lunch in the popular Marmalade Cafe and chatted like the two old queens we are.


Chester is only 30 minutes away from Trelawnyd driving slow, so it’s lovely to know I’ve got a city on my doorstep. 

Roger has got over his nerves with most things unknown now, but was scared by a thunderstorm last night so hid away with Mary at his side in his crate until things quietened down.



“ No George it’s not the peas, it’s the last thirty years!”


In December I ended a friendship .
I ended it ostensibly due to one spoken word 
One word which underlined , to me , that there was no respect in the relationship.
All this, I know is purposely vague

Relationships often end messily 
An amalgam of things generally 
But with a straw that broke the camels’ back

Fa venire l’acquolina in bocca



 After walking the dogs, I slept heavily until 3pm
I must have needed the sleep , for I woke cuddling Albert which never happens when we are both conscious. 
Subsequently I’m on catch up.
The place looks like Coventry after the bombing. 
Having a new puppy is like having a toddler without a nappy and this compounded with night shifts mean than the cottage looks, well rather grubby.
I drove to Sainsbury’s listening to the seven minute Last Resort by The Eagles 
And sang it all the way through.
I bought healthy
Mozzarella, Basil, huge organic tomatoes and a small Italian ciabatta. 
Chic Eleanor caught me by the fruit aisle and peered into my trolley
Fa Venice l’acquolina in bocca” she purred
She’s taught me that phrase before.

I came home and made proper coffee in the Moka pot. 
I gave each one of the dogs a pigs ear ( Dorothy always has two as her mouth is bigger) so I’ve got, I reckon a good 15 minutes piece until they start demanding again.
I pour my coffee and sit at the table 
I need a few minutes to write my blog and chill.
I note I have written several syringe driver readings on my hand in pen
You can always tell a hospice nurse when you see them, written above the glove line.

There’s a Trelawnyd Community Association meeting at 5.30 and because of the brief rain we had everything feels humid and sticky.
I need a shower too
But not before coffee and kitchen table time.
Dorothy kicks the cat flap in a diva anger strop and I let her in. 
Villager Jim is standing outside the cottage on two sticks 
I haven’t seen him since before lockdown. 
He wasn’t well then
We chatted for a while 
“ Apparantly I have  early onset Alzheimer’s John” he told me
“ You remembered my name after three years” I reminded him
“ Oh yes I did” he said rather pleased with himself.
Roger threw up his pigs ear onto the patio and Dorothy gleefully sucked it up.
I took my coffee and ipad into the living room, pigs ear smell is revolting

Winifred’s Rubber chicken lies forlorn on the carpet.
And from the kitchen I can hear Mary chasing Roger outside in order to bark a welcome to another passerby…Dorothy joins in because she feels she should 

Nothing is still except the chicken

I may light the log burner tonight

Winter Is Coming

 


As Carrie Bradshaw would say And Just Like That…..it’s autumn.
It’s seventeen minutes past six and it’s not yet dawn.
Where did the summer go?
I’ve booked the chimney sweep, and ordered the logs 
And the Bake Off have another motley group of 12 for us to either love or hate over the next few months.
The Christmas request rota is up at work 
The WalkingDead returns for its finale 
And I’ve already sorted through my jumper drawer trying to find ones that will fit.

Where has the year gone? 
Lockdown seems a million miles away now but the memories of isolation make us feed on company more more than we ever did. 
I’ll filling my diary with stuff and I have a list of things to do around the cottage for my last holiday of the year the week after next.