Tonight I completed my seventh episode of counselling experience as a client. As trainee counsellors we all are required to experience therapy first hand and pay for it too, and I’ve found the experience awkward, challenging, emotional and enlightening, as my counsellor is based in the “eclectic” theory base of counselling rather than pure client centred base of therapy that I’m being trained in.
My counsellor ventured something I need to think about too
He suggested I was coming out of a clinical depression .one which started a year after my husband left me and one which had been fed and watered by covid
I’m still processing this
But I sort of know he is right.
I’m a month into a strict diet and only last week I joked with him that weight loss was my last goal back to getting back to the real me.
He didn’t challenge me then…..he didn’t have to, as we both read each other’s non verbals,
The elephant in the room.
What I thought was a new start generally, may have been an end to a depression , I never really realised I had