Guilty Pleasures


No
They are not Theatre Tickets, or dog walker fees, or cinema seats or my obsession with policemen with beards ...all those are essential pleasures
Not guilty ones
No , my main guilty pleasure happens but once a month on average, and lasts an hour tops!
My guilty pleasure is a trip to Aldi for a mooch around the centre ( non food based) aisles
Tonight has brought some amazing treasures
They include

Sculpting clay
A set of bespoke pencils
A bag of pigs ears
A squidgy nightlight in the shape of a fat bear !!!??!!!!!??????
Batteries
Hand gel
A pair of linen shorts
A pair of workman’s dungarees!!!!
2 bottles of white vinegar ( to clean off the polish from a 1940s bookcase)
A mini sander ( to carry on the preparation of the above)
A shiny tin lunch box
Lotion for cracked heels
A small succulent plant
Masking tape
Rainbow paper serviettes

Little treasures all!!!!



Alexa


Went to Liverpool last night to see a friend
Dinner out
Too much gin
Great fun shouting at Alexa when we returned home
No hangover today
But it’s time to doze on the couch

Paranoia


Tonight is my sixth night duty in 8 days
And it’s a night when a paranoid new admission who can physically do some harm if left untreated Was admitted
Patients can be paranoid for a variety of reasons, ranging from hypoxia( lack of oxygen), chemical imbalances, trauma and mental illness
I was hoping for a quiet night
Fat chance
Thankfully dealing with unpredictable patients is what I do well
And after four hours and a very shaky start, things seem to be under control.

The rule of thumb when managing paranoia is that you control the situation before it escalates

I learned this rule many years ago when I worked on a mother and baby psychiatric unit on nights.
The unit was split into two with an enrolled nurse caring for 4 babies in a nursery on one side of an office area whilst the four mothers and 12 general psychiatric patients were nursed in single rooms and small dormitories of two and four beds on the other .The adult patients were my responsibility aided by another staff nurse of similar rank.
Two nurses to oversee 16 acutely ill souls

That night we had a new mother admitted suffering from a suspected post partum psychosis
The patient’s paranoia had been masked somewhat by the Patient’s self medication of alcohol prior to admission but in the middle of the night it started to surface and the patient asked to see her baby in the nursery .
Luckily I refused. Something told me not to give her total access,  so instead I brought the patient in her nightdress to the ward office where she could see her baby sleeping in its cot through an observation window.
Initially the patient seemed satisfied with this but her mood turned on a penny when some bizarre thought took hold and she launched herself at the window in an attempt to break it.
She wanted to kill her baby
As the enrolled nurse desperately  pulled the baby away from the window I grabbed the patient who let rip her paranoid strength on me and immediately I felt as though I was in a fight for my life.
Mental illness has no filters when it comes to such situations and as my fellow staff nurse ran for the emergency bell To gain help...
I was on my own.
In the  two minutes it took for her to return and for runners to appear from each one of our 6 sister wards ( and for a another patient to run down from his room to help me) I was scratched and punched black and blue and was actually bitten twice, both times bizarrely on my shoulder
I had lost at least one clump of hair , had my glasses broken and had been urinated upon during the fight which even more frighteningly had taken place in almost total silence on the floor of an office that looked as though a tornado had hit it.
The patient was expressionless as she attacked me, even when blood from a slash on my ear covered her hands
She was eventually controlled very quickly by the runner nurses and given emergency medication by injection on the floor of the office
I was taken to the staff room to wash up then to A&E for a tetanus
I was just 24 years old
and it was my first fight at work.
After the tetanus I asked the ward sister if I could use the bathroom and she directed me to the nicer staff loo in A&E

Where I locked myself into a cubicle
And cried like a baby


25 Things You Didn’t Know About Me

Nora one of my first pigs

We have been playing a game on nights in between turns and meds and lady of the lamp moments 
It’s called things you didn’t know about me 
  • Some specific nursing skills I have include being able to teach spinally injured men to obtain an erection using injectable medication, caverjet.
  • I leaned to swim at the age of 41
  • I am colourblind
  • I have a deformed right index finger 
  • I once ran Three successful 8 week night schools Teaching people how to look after chickens
  • I almost drowned in a swimming pool in loret del mar
  • I have been to New York 12 times
  • I have owned four pigs in my life and have eaten two
  • I have only visited 11 different countries in my life
  • I have had 3 long term relationships with Men and one with a woman
  • I am a natural baritone but sing in the bass section in choir
  • I have kissed two policemen on the lips who were in uniform
  • I have never been arrested
  • I am dyspraxic 
  • I have been Totally paralysed with fear once in my life and had to be led off the Seattle Space Needle’s observation deck by an elderly Japanese lady tourist 
  • I have been present at the birth of 5 babies and one set of twins 
  • I have been off my head on drugs ( mild) just once in my life
  • When I was a bank clerk I never balanced my till once in 2 years
  • I have written a blog almost everyday Since 2006
  • I once had to hold a totally severed leg in theatre
  • I have owned three houses of my own.
  • I didn’t own a dog until I was 40
  • My mother once saved my life when I almost choked to death on a mint imperial 
  • I broke my collar bone when I did a parachute jump
  • I have no middle name

My first and second chicken course students !

Village News?


Mary, Dorothy and I walked up the Gop yesterday afternoon.
It was humid and showery and we three sat on the summit for a while sweating and panting in the heat.
Mary leaned against me as Welsh terrier do and watched the village
Dorothy just lolled her eyes a bit and watched me.
I have never had such a needy dog.
I stroke her to keep her still and calm

The village is changing as the lockdown changes.
It’s busier in traffic and shopping is almost back to normal so the Street wardens now have little to do and the Velvet Voiced Linda now no longer texts her weekly roll call to the 40 souls who secretly love her words of praise and encouragement .
The pub remains closed and somewhat desolate but the Community association remains stalwart and focused under its firm leadership so I am sure the future of the Memorial Hall will be safe.
It should be.
I hope it will be.

Cameron hasn’t finished photoshopping the group photos he took the other month . He’s been busy at work which is lucky as so many people seem to be worried about their jobs. Trendy Carol is busy too and looks tired when I saw her last....mind you I looked like the wreck of the Hesperus after so many night shifts .....she was just too polite to say so.

I caught Mrs Trellis out, and was surprised to find her uncharacteristically curt.
I had not upset her , I was sure if that so I chalked it up to her having a bad day.
Her bobble hat mirrored her Black mood and looked stiff and tight lipped

Meirion Jones on the other hand was his usual chatty self and it was an age and a mass of plant information later before I could get away for home.
I see that the Royle’s house on London Road has sold and the new people were moving in today...lots of toys in the van.....a family !  which is great news.

As we turned by the church I waved at the young mom and her kiddies from Bron Haul .She had been counting the pebbles in the vicar’s decorated Covid Snake 
Over 80!!!!!” She called and I gave her the thumbs up
The vicar will be pleased.

It feels like a storm is brewing





Nephew



This photo kind of broke my heart just a little
It’s a photo of my nephew
Well it’s actually a photo of my ex husbands nephew but
Him and me have always been in touch since the break up, and so I see him as my own

He sent me the photo yesterday.. a return gift after I sent him a baby photo of him and his uncle,a photo. I found sandwiched away in my bookcase in a tarnished silver frame.

It’s unlikely we shall meet, he lives in Broadstairs down in Kent, but I’m determined to be one of those Uncles who writes and texts and who talks movies in the middle of the night

I will get the photo framed
A slightly gauche teenager
With a Star Wars t shirt .....and a wide grin

Hey ho

Choir


Twenty five members of the choir met in the grounds of our rehearsal hall this evening. Twenty six if you counted Mary , who has attended each one of our Zoom virtual meetings and now has achieved a sort of status of choir mascot.
We all brought drinks and nibbles and the novelty of meeting each other in person was enhanced greatly when Jamie informed us that he had checked the rules and the government had given us the green light to sing outside.....
And sing we did.
It was difficult at first as singing when you are separated from all of your fellow bases etc by swirling air and a six feet gap is incredibly difficult but haltingly and with much self consciousness we sang And after five months apart several of the choristers cried openly at the true and raw power of that moment.

Another mini victory against Covid



Jamie reassuringly had grown his 1940s RAF moustache for the evening  


Choir Day

As you most know Tuesday’s in Trelawnyd signify Choir day
Covid has put pay to a proper choir practice for months and even though perhaps just half of my fellow choristers have managed to soldier on in a zoom format
The resulting efforts have always been somewhat disappointing
This morning my fellow village altos and I got together for coffee and cake . Heulwen  has been shielding since March and has been careful with contact with Hattie and I as we have been working in the front line.
This morning we will meet properly and it will be lovely to catch up in a relaxed way for the very first time( I will post the photos later)

Hattie refers to the three of us as the Trelawnyd Sandwich which is pleasing.
We play a family of sorts, three generations playing pragmatic mother, doting uncle and Dutiful daughter and there is something incredibly freeing having friends that cover such an age gap and differences

Tonight ( and I will post the photographs a bit later) our sandwich meets up with the choir , hopefully in its entirety . Conductor Jamie ( hopefully sporting his 1940s RAF moustache) has arranged for us to meet up outside at the village hall! Welsh government rules mean that we are still unable to sing inside , but we are all hoping that we may be able to join in together , at least once a bit later.

I have missed Choir so very much
I cannot stress just how wonderful it is to produce something that can sound so beautiful almost from nothing .......