Jamie ,our Choirmaster ( Sans his1940 RAF moustache ) organised a few new sings tonight as well as some trusty old tunes at our choir Zoom
He picked one old favourite from before I joined the choir which caught me unawares, sat at the kitchen table like I was.
He chose Moon River
Now, Moon River , was the music that was played at my wedding . It was always " our tune"
And I haven't heard it publically since the wedding
Having it served as a curved ball at choir absolutely threw me.
After a minute or so , I slunk, hopefully unnoticed out of my Zoom position in the left top corner of the computer screen
And I stood quietly weeping in the rain, under the honeysuckle by the front door until everyone had finished singing
He picked one old favourite from before I joined the choir which caught me unawares, sat at the kitchen table like I was.
He chose Moon River
Now, Moon River , was the music that was played at my wedding . It was always " our tune"
And I haven't heard it publically since the wedding
Having it served as a curved ball at choir absolutely threw me.
After a minute or so , I slunk, hopefully unnoticed out of my Zoom position in the left top corner of the computer screen
And I stood quietly weeping in the rain, under the honeysuckle by the front door until everyone had finished singing
(((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about this unexpected arrow through your heart, John. Special songs like that carry such resonance and alas, will always do so.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry. It's the unexpected moments that can be the most difficult.
ReplyDeleteOh, John. Grief triggers come so quickly and can pierce so deeply. I'm sorry.
ReplyDeleteIt's a special song. That is why it endures. Dry your eyes mate... and move on.
ReplyDeleteSongs do tug had the heartstrings and am sorry this took you unawares.
ReplyDeleteI hope the rest of the songs sung tonight were uplifting and fun.
((Hugs))
Of course it HAD to be that one! What were the chances?!
ReplyDeleteCatch your breath and reload, John. Take care my friend.
Oh john , get over it ! X
DeleteThat must have been such a dreadful shock John as you would have never have expected it.I think I would have been terribly wounded and shaking.I really don't know why this happened but possibly it's just got to be lived through.Cry and then move on-I'm sure you will be in love again and be loved- until then you have all of Our love surrounding you and your darling furry ones xx
ReplyDeleteIt was upsetting, but it wasn't the end of the world
DeleteI'll get over it
A song will sure do that. When I hear the song my husband and I danced to in our darkened kitchen the night before he died, I have to go cry and wail in the shower.
ReplyDeleteKaren that is quite beautiful
DeleteWhat was the song?
At Last by Etta James 😢
DeleteKaren I would love to give you a hug right now x
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ReplyDeleteSongs do that to me as well. Moon River is one of my favorites. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI need a hug mick
DeleteImagine my arms outstretched across the Atlantic.
DeleteHugs from afar, music has strong associations. Take care. Reclaiming takes time
ReplyDeleteI think that was a perfect reaction, hopefully a cleansing cry. It actually sounds like a healing moment from my perspective.
ReplyDeleteYou picked a lovely choir to fill in for us. I wonder how many of us are triggered by that song. So many took it as their own.
ReplyDeleteYour new side bar of Mary's forever friend, is so charming.
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ReplyDeleteToo many tears, too soft a heart...tho this song , in this context made me teary too. I'll always remember how happy you were, "The best day of my life," you said. And we shared in your happiness.
ReplyDeleteAgreed...I'm fine this am
DeleteI'm glad for that, have fun w your art day. I must sew more masks here in NY area.
Deleteare you boomers okay with the fact that teenagers and young people are having their lives destroyed, and many driven to suicide, just so you boomers can enjoy an extra couple of years of life? How selfish are you boomers? What kind of evil person wants to destroy the youth? Are you boomers not afraid of ending up in retirement homes, staffed by all the young people who you abused and destroyed?
ReplyDeleteIt's shrinked!
DeleteMoon River is a beautiful song. And every time I hear it from Breakfast at Tiffany's, I always get teary eyed.
ReplyDeleteIt's one of those moments you can't plan for. Sorry you were hurting. I expect the next time you hear it it will do the same thing... and then one day it probably won't. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteJo in Auckland
Watching that I had an eerie feeling that this is the future of 'socialising'. Maybe we'll even have sex by Zoom.
ReplyDeleteMine too John. It was my favorite and now it hurts.
ReplyDeleteI’m dreading hearing my dear dads favourite Dean Martin song as I know it will crush me in the same way. Music is so powerful in so many ways. Much love from Janey x
ReplyDelete'Only you' (The Flying Pickets' version) does much the same to me concerning a young fireman I once had a thing with. KBO, as Churchill would have said.
ReplyDeleteBittersweet
DeleteThe power of music it can make you happy or sad they can be the soundtrack of our lives as they rekindle past memories it's a bit like watching a sad movie I can sit and cry but I find myself crying not because of the movie but of other things going through my mind and I feel better after it.
ReplyDeleteI understand. It was a song that had a whole lot of meaning and memories for me too. So sweet. So iconic. Things hurt right now. The pain evaporates slowly. Care for yourself. Weep when you need to.
ReplyDeleteThose surprises are often so difficult. If you loved that song before your wedding, I hope you can take it back some day. Fuck him (ooh, sorry, I know I'm not supposed to say things like that... So, SCREW him!
ReplyDeleteMany of us have songs that trigger emotions. There is nothing wrong with having emotions, it is a human thing.
ReplyDeleteAh John, I'm sorry. Sending hugs sweetie.
ReplyDeleteI noticed you had gone, a tough one that, big hug John xxxx
ReplyDeleteAnother milestone Sarah x
DeleteThose sort of 'catch you off guard' moments wrench your heart out, wring it through and toss it back in a state don't they 😳☹️
ReplyDeleteMoon River was played at my parents funerals and then at my daughter's wedding (she warned me beforehand) so it's very bittersweet for me, but I do love it.
ReplyDeleteSueF
I'm sorry especially without warning. Music is very evocative, xxx
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