I enrolled in a day’s seminar/study on PTSD today.
It was in Liverpool and most of the group were counsellors, and health care professionals with varying degrees of experience.
For most of the day we were split up into working groups , each with a facilitator.
My group’s facilitator I shall call Josh and he was exhaustingly and successfully gay.
Not only did we find out that he was in a wonderfully supportive relationship with his long term boyfriend, Juan- Luca, Josh also managed to shoehorn personal and self validating facts about the pair of them at every given chance.
I quickly started to hate Josh
I hated his smugness, and his neediness and his showing off about how lovely his two pugs were with their daddies.
I hated his 34 inch waist , and his neatly ironed designer shirt,
I hated just how white his teeth were and how his hair didn’t move an inch as he flounced around.
I hated that he reminded me I was single and sometimes lonely
And I hated the fact that I disagreed with one valid clinical observation he made just because he got on my nerves.
As part of a wind down debrief, we all shared what we were going to do with the rest of the day, and Josh preened that he was going to cook his hubby a delicious steak with asparagus on their new patio barbecue as said hubby opened a chilled bottle of something expensive
When it came around to my debrief , I just about stopped with the comment “ I hope it chokes you both” and smiled a tired smile before sharing a slightly ironic “ I think I will lie down in a darkened room with a cool face flannel over my eyes”
I’m only human, I thought darkly
Ps weaver has disappeared again 🐈⬛