I was going to a surprise birthday party tonight.
I can tell you that it’s Sandra Cameron’s because it started an hour ago now, so no spoilers for her. She’s a darling of a woman and is infamous for winning the Best Boiled Egg cup in last years flower Show.
I know myself well, and as I hate walking into a gathering alone I had asked a friend from Trelawnyd to come with me, but alas they are unwell, and so I’ve decided not to go alone.
I’ve written a card and bought Sandra a pretty plant and dropped them at her house.
I’m ok with some of my insecurities

I'm surprised that you dislike entering a room full of people, some, if not most, of whom you know. But you know you, and I'm sure Sandra will appreciate the card and plant anyway. xx
ReplyDeleteI’m not as assertive as sometimes I appear
DeleteI'm surprised too that you didn't go, but as hh said, you know you. I don't suppose those brutal shifts helped with your energy level either. XO
ReplyDeleteI am somewhat tired and tired means my psychological reserves are low today
DeleteBut once you walked in you'd be surrounded by friends and neighbors?!?
ReplyDeleteThat’s true , but sometime my insecurities of putting myself onto others uninvited take president …I know myself well
DeleteSurely Chic Eleanor would have happily joined you? When I say "joined", I do not mean a literal physical connection because that would be a very impudent suggestion.
ReplyDeleteShe is in Italy 🇮🇹
DeleteSuch a shame, John. I can understand the feeling. Sometimes that’s easy for some and not so easy for others.
ReplyDeleteI’m very aware of how single men are sometimes viewed in social situations
DeleteCan understand completely
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DeleteI would feel the same but if I thought that there would be people there I knew well I may possibly hoik up the big pants and dive in.
ReplyDeleteyes, agreed..even if I didn't stay long
DeleteThere would be loads , but I’m a person who doesn’t feel it’s ok to latch onto others without invitation
DeleteMaybe another time it would have felt ok to walk in your own , but it clearly didn’t feel right this evening and that’s ok . xx
ReplyDeleteI have my own insecurities and I accept them
DeleteThat’s why I love you squire , you outline your weaknesses too…..( I’m booked into Docks for 4.30 and am having a cocktail at home before I go…..I raise my 🍸
DeleteLee
How often do u go dear Lee ?
Delete6 afternoons a week squire x
DeleteJohn, I get it. It’s more than ok. It can be a really creepy feeling.Sending lots of love and giant hugs.❤️. Carol in Atlanta
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DeleteSometimes we need to make ourselves do uncomfortable things, and sometimes it’s not essential. Be yourself and be content.
ReplyDeleteI’m ok with myself
DeleteYou do what's best for you, always, but ... what if everyone felt as you do and nobody came to the party?
ReplyDeleteHugs!
That’s a bit unfair
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