On the Nature of Daylight


I’ve delivered most of the village Christmas cards today
Lots of walks up to postboxes and to doorways decorated with wreaths and ribbons.
With the sky turning opaque,
And the temperature dropping considerably 
It was cold 
by mid afternoon.

Mrs Trellis was sat quietly on her sofa,
I saw her through her living room window 
Hands neatly on her lap. 
Eyes off on some distant thought
And my heart broke for her, just a little.

I prepared  a beef stew with dumplings made from scratch with suet and herbs and flour and salt. 
And found a tablecloth and napkins in the back of a drawer,
And lit candles in holders as Weaver watched, with narrow eyes

And the German man I know cancelled supper far too late with a brief text of explanation but with no apology. 

I could weep a little.


81 comments:

  1. The dark seems to make everything a little worse, a little more lonely. Wish I could give both you and Mrs. Trellis a hug and a cup of tea.

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  2. Anonymous5:56 pm

    I know the feeling , sat in my parents apartment , with no one calling at Hanukkah.
    Be brave as you always seem to be

    Lee

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  3. Sounds lovely and delicious. Maybe you should have invited Mrs Trellis to fill in? Or Chic Eleanor?

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    1. Eleanor is winging her way to Italy to stay with her sister

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  4. Shelly Williams6:22 pm

    You are worth much more than an unexplained cancellation, you really are xx

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    1. Anonymous9:39 pm

      I think the German man's husband is worth more than the German man and John, who are trying to hook up together. Where's everyone's morals gone? You just don't do shit like this. How would you like it, John? Not so much, I'm sure. From Ruth.

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    2. The German man was single. He was dating when I met him , not married and was single soon afterwards, you are quick to think the worst “ Ruth”

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  5. Not cool of the dinner guest. The problem is with him not you. If you have leftovers why not take some over to Mrs Trellis. Try and do something pleasing for yourself today.

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    1. I’ve boxed some up for a friend in the village and for my colleagues tomorrow night . The chilli in it would be too spiced for Mrs Trellis

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  6. Barbara Anne6:58 pm

    How disappointing of your new friend not to apologize wholeheartedly.
    Hope you consider having Mrs Trellis and a couple of others in for leftovers. You and they will be guaranteed a good time!

    Big hugs!

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    1. I agree. You need to ask Mrs. Trellis over for dinner. Doubt she'd want anything fancy, a stew and bread will do, she just needs some company and some pets to love on. Roger would love it.

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    2. I’ve boxed a portion up for my friend E . It’s a bit too spicy for Mrs T

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    3. I’ve added chilli flakes

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    4. Then please cook some tamer food for Mrs Trellis and other guests and a seasonally chocolate dessert, too?!

      Hugs!

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  7. Sorry about the cancellation but dinner sounds great. And I can't decide whether that top picture is you or Ed Asner!

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  8. And sometimes it is good to weep. XO

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  9. That does seem very rude to cancel at the last minute, knowing that you would have already gone to some trouble.

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    1. We will see where things go

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    2. Don't wait to see where things go. I think you already know.

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  10. Not nice of him. Freeze half for when you come home knackered and too tired to cook!

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    1. I’m at work tomorrow so it will taste bloody lovely then …I’ve boxed some up for my friend across the village

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  11. Anonymous9:17 pm

    How reliable did you expect him to be when you already know he's in a relationship with somebody else. As he told you when you first met him.

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    1. Anonymous9:36 pm

      I have to agree. Why you even going there? Why come in between a man and his husband? Sorry, but it's crap of you. And I think that about men and women doing it too. You just don't, because it's a shitty thing to do. It's Ruth by the way.

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    2. He was dating someone when I met him and was single soon after, but then “ Ruth” you didn’t want to know that fact

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    3. Anonymous9:51 pm

      Because you never told us that fact! Ruth

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    4. Anonymous9:51 pm

      And I'm sure that's a lie anyway to make yourself look better. Ruth

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    5. I’ve mentioned it several times my odious reader

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    6. Anonymous9:57 pm

      Ruth is a right old “c*nt “!

      Rofl
      Keith

      Xx

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    7. Anonymous10:02 pm

      You're an idiot, Keith. Why am I a cunt for not thinking cheating is acceptable? You're the cunt. And John, no you haven't mentioned it several times. I've just been back through the posts and no mention that he's now single. And no he wasn't "dating". Your only post mentioning it says he said he was in a "relationship", which signifies a lot more than "dating". You've shown how odious you are! I'm not.

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    8. Anonymous10:15 pm

      You are even sadder for checking. I remember reading that John said he was now single , not that this even matters . It’s non of my or your business.
      You are a sad troll and the cunt comment stands
      And may I add sad to the cunt
      You are a sad cunt

      Keith

      Xx

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    9. Oh lord, thank you Keith for the support and the good memory xx

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    10. Anonymous10:31 pm

      I cannot abide online trolling
      And John I want to hug you long and hard

      Keith

      Xx

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    11. He was very sweet Keith 🙁🙏

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    12. Anonymous10:35 pm

      And he hurt you!
      Oh John , you have a gentle heart xxxxx
      And you will always be bruised by its weakness

      Keith

      Xx

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    13. Anonymous10:41 pm

      I’ve just read your urgent email Keith 😈

      I’m ready to bitch slap the troll
      With BOTH HANDS

      Lee

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    14. I can go to bed safe in the knowledge my supporters are here lol

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    15. Anonymous10:58 pm

      Love ya squire

      Lee

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  12. Anonymous9:26 pm

    Beautiful emotive music.

    Your German friend - Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about.

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    1. Agreed , I’m upset for me , not at him as yet

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  13. Anonymous9:50 pm

    Oh, you only want the people that feel sorry for you to comment. What a morally bankrupt person you've turned out to be. We all have a duty to be decent to our fellow human beings. Knowingly entering a relationship when the other person is with someone else is crap and you know it. Shame on you. I won't be reading your blog anymore as you're not a nice person. Ruth.

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    1. Yawn….and have you been decent to me ? No

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  14. How disappointing that someone would treat you that way. ❤

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    1. We will see if it was a negative behaviour

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    2. Its the not apologizing that bothers me. There could be a good reason but an apology is warranted.

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  15. Oh hell. I'm sorry. I hate that for you.

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  16. Anonymous10:05 pm

    I'll leave you to your arse-lickers and people that like to fawn over you no matter what. You have not mentioned in any post he was now single, but hey, that makes me "odious" lol. Get some morals.

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    1. Hateful comments come from bitterness and pain, you must be deeply pained

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    2. Well I remember John saying that he had ended his relationship before they went out, just because you missed it' doesn't mean it isn't there as I'm not the only one who remembers it.

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  17. Late to things, as usual.

    No decent words except a couple of those paragraphs would be great in that bloody book you need to write!

    I am beginning to really like Weaver.

    Take care

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  18. Anonymous10:20 pm

    John, who the bloody hell are these angry haters? I hope they don’t live in your village.
    I’m sorry this happened to you! Sending love and hugs❤️Carol in Atlanta

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    1. No it’s just one woman

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    2. One woman with many names. And that one woman is not nice.

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  19. Last minute cancellations, get no second chances in my book. It's entirely up to you but that's how I see it.
    I have no tolerance for ill manners and being treated badly!

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  20. Anonymous11:18 pm

    Readers are so quick to judge! They don't know the reason why he cancelled as you haven't said. It could be something more important than supper with a friend. You as his friend will be better placed to judge but don't be too hasty to dismiss him because the cancellation hurt. That's how life is sometimes. Everybody (almost everybody) deserves a second chance. Also English possibly isn't his first language which can sometimes affect how an explanation comes over. If you've got close enough to invite him for supper use your gut feeling.

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  21. You have good instincts. Use them.

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  22. Anonymous12:11 am

    How awful. "When someone shows you who they are, believe them." Maya Angelou

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  23. I'm bracing myself for comments given what's gone before this but I am NOT the same Ruth. I've had a bad/sad day and I just think I want you to be able to relax and Mrs T to feel loved albeit by strangers.

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  24. Mrs Trellis was probably daydreaming about bobble hats and hoping she gets another one this Christmastime to add to her collection. As for the German fellow, extradition seems to be in order. "Sorry" is about respect as much as it is about apology.

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  25. Anonymous12:31 am

    So sorry John, but I would not be giving him a second chance to hurt me. But you do you. Hugs. Gigi

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  26. Anonymous12:46 am

    Your meals always sound so inviting John. I often sit here salivating! I was sorry to read that your guest bailed. Somehow particularly at this time of the year I expect people to be more thoughtful. I had a friend who said she liked curry, so I twice invited her for a curry supper, and each time bailed saying she got nervous before social invites. Anyway, best foot forward, and onwards. Jean in Winnipeg.

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  27. They'll be other dinners, I'm sure, but perhaps best with someone else other than that German.

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  28. Anonymous1:13 am

    oh, dear Mrs Trellis :-( and sorry to hear your new german friend cancelled so abruptly. A disappointment of huge proportions overall- they do sting
    Susan M/ Calif.

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  29. Anonymous3:09 am

    Wow! Everyone is pretty judgy today! Hope the dinner guest had some sort of emergency and the troll gets laid, high or something!
    Kathy

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  30. What does Mrs Trellis do over Christmas? Maybe an evening together for Beef stew and Dumplings may be just to her liking.

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  31. I am late with my cards this year although I am posting less now due to the cost. I hope for Mrs Trellis that the pain of her loss lessens soon. Sometimes all you can do is sit silently and let it work through. Hopefully she will feel ready to turn to her friends in time.

    Am so sorry about the late cancellation. Your dinner sounds delicious and may today be a better day.

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