- Never Far From Me



The lights in the cottage at night
Show her cataracts and in the gloom I now see an old lady
She’s now almost blind in one eye.
And walks a little stiffly now
But she eats well even though her weight is now light for her size.

We walked out last night at dusk.
Roger now leading as she once did
She following
As he once did.

We stopped at the field gate 
And Roger dipped his head to the grass
But Mary didn’t……
She stood still and held her head up to the night breeze and closed her eyes

And in that moment
I couldn’t have loved my old girl more

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  1. Anonymous7:05 pm

    Jesus johno
    I’ve got something in my eye

    Lee

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  2. Sue E7:11 pm

    Awe bless her , still enjoying life x

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  3. Kippy7:23 pm

    So beautiful.

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  4. Anonymous7:28 pm

    I’m crying for a love of an old Welsh terrier I’ve never met

    Love from Ceri in Leeds

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    1. Thank you ceri and thank you for your email x

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  5. Anonymous7:30 pm

    Oh Mary , I remember you arriving as a puppy in 2015
    Didn’t your dad call you “ Rocket” ?

    From Elaine, a very long time follower, a first time commentator

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  6. That's beautiful, thank you. Thinking of you all , especially over the next few days. Hugs. Jxx

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    1. If feeling emotional hence the post x

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  7. Barbara Anne7:37 pm

    Oh, how very sweet and sad that dearest Mary is showing her age but is still game for going for a walk. What trust she has in you and Roger.
    Keeping you and your co-workers in thought and prayer.

    Hugs!

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  8. Anonymous7:39 pm

    Absolutely beautiful, like a poem
    I love you John

    Keith

    Xx

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    1. Aww… thank you
      Mary was a gift from my husband to salve the grief of Meg , my old co pilot

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    2. See

      https://disasterfilm.blogspot.com/2015/06/my-co-pilot.html

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  9. Traveller7:42 pm

    You know the day they come to live with you that, one day, they will break your heart.

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    1. Anonymous8:17 pm

      John, bless you both. I’m sending love to you and the four leggeds.
      Thinking about you morning and night and praying for good news. Carol in A

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  11. Oh, animals do wind themselves around our hearts, don't they? Even if they're not our animals and we've never met them. Such a beautiful, graceful, elderly lady. xx

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  12. Every beautiful moment is a precious gift 💝

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  13. Sweet Mary. She's the matriarch. A beautiful girl marching on with her loving family.

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    1. An old matriarch , as was Dorothy, Winnie and Meg

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  14. Oh, John. Dear Mary.

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  15. You paint such wonderful pictures with just a few words. You, sweet Mary, dim Roger, dear Bun, and warrior Weaver are in my thoughts & heart.
    Hugs to you all.

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  16. Mary is such a sweetheart.

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  17. Anonymous9:47 pm

    often times, your emotions through written words move me to tears. this is a good thing...... sweet Mary. So loved.....
    Susan M/ Calif.

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  18. Yorkshire Liz10:01 pm

    At the same stage with my last little dog. Some days the ageing process is more noticeable than others, and it is heartbreaking. Then another day there is a day like the old days. And you remember how they were and it lifts your heart. King wrote a poem about giving your heart to a dog to tear. Says it all, really.

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    1. Yorkshire Liz10:03 pm

      Sorry, spellchecker changed Kipling to King while I wasn't looking!

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    2. Traveller1:53 pm

      And here it is:
      There is sorrow enough in the natural way
      From men and women to fill our day;
      And when we are certain of sorrow in store,
      Why do we always arrange for more?
      Brothers and Sisters, I bid you beware
      Of giving your heart to a dog to tear.

      Buy a pup and your money will buy
      Love unflinching that cannot lie—
      Perfect passion and worship fed
      By a kick in the ribs or a pat on the head.
      Nevertheless it is hardly fair
      To risk your heart for a dog to tear.

      When the fourteen years which Nature permits
      Are closing in asthma, or tumour, or fits,
      And the vet’s unspoken prescription runs
      To lethal chambers or loaded guns,
      Then you will find—it’s your own affair—
      But… you’ve given your heart to a dog to tear.

      When the body that lived at your single will,
      With its whimper of welcome, is stilled (how still!).
      When the spirit that answered your every mood
      Is gone—wherever it goes—for good,
      You will discover how much you care,
      And will give your heart to a dog to tear.

      We’ve sorrow enough in the natural way,
      When it comes to burying Christian clay.
      Our loves are not given, but only lent,
      At compound interest of cent per cent.
      Though it is not always the case, I believe,
      That the longer we’ve kept ’em, the more do we grieve:
      For, when debts are payable, right or wrong,
      A short-time loan is as bad as a long—
      So why in—Heaven (before we are there)
      Should we give our hearts to a dog to tear?

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    3. Yorkshire Liz7:04 pm

      Thank you for finding that and reproducing it, Traveller. I couldn't bear to; even at my cynical old age it still makes me cry whenever I read it.

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    4. Traveller, I know the poem well,
      You give your heart to a dog to tear
      Is the most powerful and apt description of grief

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  19. Beautiful and heartbreaking.

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  20. Awwww, so touching. Animals carry our history as well as theirs.

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  21. Anonymous10:41 pm

    The last three paragraphs are such a moving and beautiful poem. Thank you.
    Georgia

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  22. Oh damn, that made me tear up.

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  23. Beautiful Mary. Thanks for sharing this.

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  24. Anonymous12:07 am

    Beautifully written, and so evocative, as usual. Olivia

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  25. Jackie12:36 am

    Feeling the same way about my dear Annie but I cannot put my feelings to words the way you do. Thanks

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  26. I do wish you'd stop this type of posting, I'm running out of tissues!

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  27. Jo in Auckland.3:28 am

    Gosh where has the time gone? I can't believe Mary is 10; poor sweet girl. They capture your heart and them break it one day, bitter sweet couldn't be a truer saying. The last couple of lines of your post had me sniffing ...and I have to go to work!

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  28. Beautiful. Sad. For some reason your description of Mary made me think of Pat. And I cried.

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  29. Blubbing inside for dearest little Mary. Can't hold it in much longer.

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    1. Oh Raymondo , you are such a soft lovable pudding

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  30. Your dear girl. So sad those moments when you realise that time has passed so much and how precious they are.

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    1. I was so proud of her sniffing the wind

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  31. I'm waiting for you to write a book about the love of dogs xx

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  32. Sweet Mary. Always heartbreaking to see them age but so much love along the years.

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  33. Ageing dogs have a grace all of their own.

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  34. Anonymous8:14 am

    Dear, sweet girl, Mary.
    I wish her well and many more walks with both you and Roger.

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  35. Anonymous8:14 am

    From me, Carole R. Forgot to name myself.

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  36. Anonymous8:17 am

    I remember she sat on my lap in your kitchen, I fussed her and she was adorable.
    Sending more hugs xx Libsxxxx

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    1. Libs I remember that, she loves women

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  37. my eyes welled up! I don't understand poetry and am not sure if this is what you have created here but it's bloody beautiful. I hope your Mary is with you for many years to come. Betty

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  38. You painted a loving picture with your words, John.

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  39. That was beautifully written John. Dogs are simply the best.

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    1. Thank you my friend , sorry I’ve not visited in a while I’ve been remiss in blog visiting for obvious reasons

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  40. I've been reading about people making loads of money by self publishing. Just saying... Hint, hint, say no more! 😉 xx

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    1. Anonymous1:05 pm

      oh for goodness sake give it a rest

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    2. If it were John saying that, I would heed. From some anonymous person, who can't be a*sed to put a name to their comment, NO.

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    3. Say what you feel HH xx always

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  41. Anonymous11:15 am

    My little Peggy will be 11 next week and is also getting cataracts. The Vet says she should have many years left in her, but will I? She does not jump up on the bed with me at night anymore but can still do it in daylight. Mary is lucky to have Roger to guide her. My dog is like velcro, stuck to me always. I sit her hoping for good news for you and your work mates. Hugs, Gigi

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  42. You are good for one another.

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  43. Old dogs really know how to enjoy their moments don't they. Ours taught us so much during their final years. Every bask in the sun, every stretch out by the fire and every leaning into a stroke or a touch from a loved one. And also how doing zoomies on the beach should never be a thing to stop doing, even if it leaves you collapsed and panting for ten minutes. :-)

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  44. Anonymous12:44 pm

    They are gifts in our lives JG, my little one will be 17 in Oct, the cataracts, slowing down (except at feeding time when she can walk on her two back legs !!) Everyday I look at her and am so grateful she came to me. She does however have an odour problem now but I can live with that xx

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  45. Anonymous12:50 pm

    Hug
    Alison in Devon x

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  46. Nelliegrace2:16 pm

    How time flies.
    Our old Daisy Dog wanted to go out as usual at 2 a.m. She saw a small hedgehog and then whined to be taken out, again and again, to see if it was still there.

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  47. You are doing a very good job of clearing my eye ducts this week. xx

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  48. Cappy3:02 pm

    I love this! I have an old girl, 13 or 14 and a half, cataracts thickening, going deaf, but still is up for an adventure!

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