Being Looked After

 Sometimes as Karpman postulated in the 1960s there is a need for some of us to take on the victim role.

I don’t say this lightly or sarcastically, I just think that sometimes us human beings need and want to be looked after. 

My GP asked me what I thought about trying out work with my weakened arm. 

I was wearing my big boys pants and was just about to say let’s give it a go! When something stopped me , 

I wasn’t sure , I was in two minds and I wanted him to make the decision .

Sometimes all you need is for someone to take over.

And he did. 

He signed me off for a month and promised to chase my tests up.

He was kind, and I needed him to be kind.

This morning I rang my old counsellor up and asked her if she had a free moment

She did

And  an hour later I was sat with her talking about my feelings of being ill and the vulnerabilities that unleashes. 

I talked myself quiet for a therapeutic hour

And I talked myself still.

My counsellor shook her head when I prepared to pay her,

She simply smiled and said “ Im retired”