Memories



 December 29th 2005 was a Thursday . 
A suicide bomber killed himself, two Palestinian civilians and an Israeli soldier on the West Bank 
Tony Blair was Prime Minister and Mariah Carey was doing well with “ Don’t forget about us” 
There was little else of note to report that day, however it was the day I started to write Going Gently.
My first post was perfunctory 

disaster thoughts

well my first blog........sounds rather like something Kenneth Williams would say.
I will be brief, and "set the scene" as it were.

I am 43, a nurse professionally, newly moved into the Welsh country side from Sheffield. I Am probably going through a mid life crisis.

Ideal for a place like this......................look forward to talk soon.

I didn’t give much away did I? but the “ Midlife crisis “ quote was a bit of giveaway. 
For I felt a bit…..aimless. 
Lizzy asked about my move from Sheffield to a tiny village the size of Hillsborough Park and I’m trying to recall the lead up to it. 
My husband certainly had itchy feet and had wanted to move to the country for  a long time and we had been together five years in a city that had served us both very well. He was looking for promotion , 
I was looking to nest.
If children were on the cards then, I would have been an ideal time to adopt,
But we left my large three bedroom terrace on the steep Wynyard Road in Hillsborough with two old cats, Welsh terrier Finlay and grumpy Scottie Maddie and moved to Trelawnyd which was a village three miles ( and thirty  years )different from my childhood home of Prestatyn.
The first year in the cottage seems a blur now. 
There was a lot for me to organise as the inside had been reduced to a bland, 1980s shell by the previous owner and so I contracted a big shy bear of a carpenter to design a new staircase and handrail, Victorian looking glass fronted cabinets for either side of the inglenook fireplace and a bookcase and wardrobe for the bedroom. 
New windows were replaced in the back of the cottage and a new garden dug from beneath the tarmac car park , an  eyesore which was bordered with a new but traditional welsh limestone wall complete with an iron wrought gate made by my brother in law.


I oversaw everything and made a home. 
And never had much to do with the “ locals” until one moment when I was painting the living room ceiling one day I caught two old ladies peeping through the living room windows. 
Both had matching cardigans on. 
It was my first meeting with lifelong friends Gwyneth Jones and Olwena Hughes. Gwyneth had a penchant for tweed skirts and lived in the farm down the lane.
Olwena had no ankles and lived in one of the pensioner bungalows on Bron Haul.
Both ladies made a run for it when I saw me waving at them with my paint brush.
I caught them in the lane by the kitchen wall and invited them in for tea.
They admitted they wanted to see what we had “ done to the place” 


I recorded this video of the two matrons a few years later. I wanted to record some spoken welsh 
The conversation is about a fellow villager who had hurt his face in a fall.
Both have long since passed away

Funny what you remember



80 comments:

  1. As Sandy Denny sang, "Who knows where the time goes?" and she left us forty four years ago. When we started we never knew how long these blogs would last.

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    1. That’s why I write it
      I know it will outlive me
      And characters ( including me) will go on ( as Celine would belt out)

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  2. And look at you now, nearly16 years later! A beautiful cottage, a valued village member, a beloved blogger! What adventures you've had, what growth you've accomplished, well done!

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    1. And grey haired and slower and older……I never thought that would happen…non of us do

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  3. This is a wonderful post! I have read your blog from the beginning more than once but it is so interesting to look back. And you were only in your early 40s! I started reading and looking forward to your daily posts even before I began my own blog in 2009. I especially loved the farming years and the village anecdotes and people. What a huge gift you have given us, mostly strangers, for almost twenty years. No wonder some of us feel, albeit incorrectly, that we know you and feel a certain friendship or camaraderie. Thanks you for sharing the years.
    [but you still did not say how you discovered Trelawnyd and what were your impressions of the tiny town, first drive thru.]

    love

    lizzy

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    1. I was specific about my choice of cottage. And surprisingly there were few to be found. We were not specific about a village , but needed somewhere not that far from the coastal railway.
      One contender was a lovely larger cottage in the village of Tremerchion ( three ladies) but this was rather run down ( the cottage not the village) and the village was several miles away from the coast.
      The cottage sold itself to me immediately.
      I saw past the shell rooms and it’s size ( which was considerably smaller than my home in Sheffield) but it was the view that sold me the place. Looking out over the field ( which later became mine) was a beautiful view, undisturbed until you reached the ring of low hills across the valley.
      It almost took my breath away.
      The front garden was sweet and I remember the church bell ringing on one day we visited .
      That part of the village, the lane, church and cottages is picturesque much more than the village in general is not.

      Those were my initial thoughts

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    2. That's lovely, thank you! It *is* such a beautiful setting and charming cottage. Years ago as a young couple looking for a beach house, I walked into my now-home and the full 180* or more ocean view sold me instantly. I hardly saw the pokey rooms and orange wallpaper, just that view.

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    3. Yes..some houses just grab u ..my old house in Hillsborough did the same

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    4. Do you have photos of that house, inside and or out?

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  4. You've come a long way. I began blogging three years after you. I've reverted the first 11 years to draft. You've got me curious to see what memories they would conjure up all these years later.

    I hope that you look at what you are with the same kind focus that you looked at what you were.

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    1. I’m conscious that I’m a sadder person generally, but this sadness I still feel is transient .
      Strangely this walk down memory Lane has balanced that a little. X

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  5. Almost twenty years, it was good to read about your beginnings, so to speak.

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    1. Oh you know me , no show without punch

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  6. Yes I joined the flower show, soon after that( which caused ructions I can tell you)

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  7. I started reading your blog about 10 years ago I think it was; I never realised you basically gutted the interior to get it to what it is like now. I am super impressed. Finally you got your new bathroom and I remember when you had your kitchen installed... such fun to remember the work but I feel thank god it's done when I had my bathroom installed. All in all a good 16 or so years. So much happens doesn't it. Love the Welsh speaking ladies... wish I could speak Welsh but sadly only English for me.

    Jo in Auckland

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    1. I’m always amazed and humbled by the vicarious pleasure my bathroom and my kitchen gave people
      Seen through my excited eyes no doubt

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  8. Barbara Anne3:52 am

    I didn't find your blog until long after you started it but am happy to read how you found your way there and all of the wonderful improvements you've made in the cottage. Home sweet home.

    Hugs!

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  9. Anonymous4:30 am

    I love the hat. Jean Winnipeg

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    1. I have no idea where it went

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    2. Anonymous4:44 pm

      Perhaps the Prof took it?

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    3. He certainly bought it..from Banff

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  10. You must have been just 18 when you started to write!

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  11. You worked very hard to build your "nest" and it is such a cosy one! It is strange how sometimes memories actually help us with our present time.

    What gorgeous smiles those ladies have after their Welsh chat!

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    1. They were discussing the facial injuries one of their friends in the village sustained in a fall
      The welsh live a good sob story lol

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  12. John Gray, I have said this before and I firmly believe it to be true, you are a good man and deserve to find contentment in your life. My psychiatrist asked me what was wrong during our last session. I said I am not happy and she said that was because I am not really satisfied. I said I am content with things. She asked what would make me really happy. I said a gay man I can trust and share my life and my bed with and love me. BINGO! she shouted. Contentment. Emotional satisfaction is what you have been lacking she said. Eventually I agreed. So John as I read the comments above and your responses I think you might need some contentment, too. I didn't experience a divorce and being gutted emotionally but I did have 3 husbands die and leave me alone. The past 20 years I have been rebuilding my life and now it seems like suddenly I turn 70 on the 29 th December and I am alone. I am falling back into depression and it's happening so fast I haven't noticed it like those around me have. You think that maybe you are doing something similar? I am told that since I reached all my goals I set for myself that now I am trying too hard to be happy and using my failing health as an excuse for my unhappiness. I am sorry and apologize if I am out of order here and getting far to personal and way to far off the blog subject. I seem to be getting into trouble with the commenters out there in Blogdom for doing that lately. There is an Ocean between us otherwise I'd be out there in the lane and at your garden gate with a couple bottles of wine saying let's talk. But now it's time to say Be safe. Be happy. Adieu

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    2. Hello woody
      Thank you for your comment
      I’m sorry you are experiencing black times , but I applaud your commitment to therapy
      We all need something like this from time to time.
      You have experienced a great deal of loss with three husbands past….
      Grief is love which has no where to go…..

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  13. Your cottage is beautiful and your blog is a delight. I'm so grateful to the (forgotten now) Welsh Terrier blog that sent me to you.

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    1. I forgot that one too was it cassie’s ?

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  14. I've gleaned a little of your back story from things you've written, so it's good to fill in a few more gaps. Thank you for sharing. xx

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    1. I’m happy to explain any other gaps

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  15. You made a wise choice where to take root John x 🌼

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  16. Yorkshire Liz8:46 am

    You remember love and loveliness, And the timeless magic of small things. Looks like you were meant to be in Trelawnyd. Great first photo to mark your silver anniversary. Great memories shared.

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  17. I love the trip down memory lane. Getting your history of the cottage move is really helpful.

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    1. I guess it gives some context to the journey

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    2. Yes it does. I have followed your blog from the days of sheep and turkeys but didn’t know the history prior to that.

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  18. That was a very interesting read. I always enjoy reading someone's first post. The title as time goes by comes to mind.

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    1. Yes….we’ve both been here in blogland a long time dear maddie x

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  19. Your first post was a clear indication of the gift you have. So few words and so intriguing and inviting. I had no idea you had done so much work on the cottage when you first moved in. Nor that you removed a carpark to create a new garden. This post warmed my heart. Did you understand all that they were saying?

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    1. Some of what they say , but old welsh friends always talk so fast and in such a sing song way , it’s hard to grasp the individual words sometimes

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  20. And we still look forward to your posts. You and the cottage continue to evolve.

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  21. Your posts may seem to you like mostly a history and record for yourself but for many of us out here, they are that AND a daily delight.

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    1. It’s a legacy for me too
      A place I feel Ive been heard and recorded and listened to

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  22. I love these sorts of looking-back posts. It's always interesting to think about where we began. And the video is fantastic! Welsh is a complete mystery to me but it's great to hear those ladies speaking -- a bit of a time warp, considering they are long gone now.

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    1. Their video is archived on my history blog too steve

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  23. I always look forward to reading your blog posts John, and thank you for sharing your beginnings with us. Your salt of the earth personality, and kindness of heart, forever resonates with me.
    Hugs,
    Jo
    Xx

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    1. Jo, you have been with me one of the longest of all readers

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    2. And I’m very grateful for that

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  24. Yes, it's funny what you remember ... but I enjoyed your walk down the lane. Btw, great hat!

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    1. I wonder whatever happened to it…it was Canadian

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  25. You have transformed the cottage in to a beautiful home and garden.The friendships and village characters in your life make country living a joy.

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    1. It’s always nice to see the vicarious pleasure that some of my experiences have on others. Especially the funny ones like the rubber vagina on the breadboard

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  26. With a few clicks you could add Blogger's Blog Archive gadget to your sidebar and people, and you, could select any entry from start to finish. Just a suggestion.

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    1. Scroll down onthe right , there is one x

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    2. So there is. Didn't notice due to its very concise format. Usually there is a list of years to click on. Anyway I see it now.

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    3. Blink and you’d miss it

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  27. When I read your blog for the first time a few years ago I immediately realized what a special person you are, for a few days I read your blog from the beginning and since then I read every post.

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    1. I’m always touched when you comment Yael. You, out of everyone seems to choose your words so very carefully . Thank you

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  28. Thank you for sharing your thoughts back when you were new to the village and the cottage. I'm a newer reader although I know a fair bit about your history through my mother, (who adored your blog!) I'm hoping you'll share a few more from the archives. The Welsh speaking ladies were lovely.

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    1. I’m being handed down now , what a compliment ! Tee hee

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  29. Cor this is scarey! Thoughts of the Ukrainian Village, Bunty, Flower Show, Winnie, cheap shoes, two legs one hole et al. How the years pass! Must write that book lad soonish. Tess x

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  30. p.s. who can ever forget 'A Vagina on the draining board ! T x

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    1. That wasn’t that long ago….yes I got a lot of flack for that ..I loved that awful moment when the log man saw it in its glory

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  31. It felt wam and friendly
    It always has

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  32. It was lovely to hear the Welsh speaking ladies have a chuckle at the end. I bet they were thrilled to be on video! :)

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  33. Anonymous7:40 pm

    Good to have a few missing pieces of your life related in this writing today. I assumed some of it, but having just *found* you through Ms. Moon about 9 years ago, missed the history of your beginnings in Trelawnyd. How far you have come, in every way! Your insights and your writing are always a welcomed part of my day.
    Susan M in Calif.

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    1. We all walk a long way in life dont we?

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  34. Thanks to writers like Alice Thomas Ellis, I want to someday see Wales.

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  35. Since moving to Builth, I don't think I've heard any Welsh spoken. Carms was VERY Welsh - my children are all bi-lingual having gone to Welsh schools, and eldest daughter now has to use Welsh in her job at the Council. Northern Welsh sounds a lot "harder" than Southern Welsh. I am reminded of the "Welsh Not" days a century ago - it was SO wrong to deprive children of their native language.

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  36. It's very good to know the history of something you read nearly every day.

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