Sunday, 26 June 2022

Sunday 5 am



 I know it’s very early. 
Somewhere just past 5 am
I’m way past sleep and am breathless 
Since covid I’ve not been able to breathe through my nose much.

I get up and make coffee
The pleasure of the smell of percolating coffee still gone. 
And I sit in the living room in silence with only the sound of the wind for company. 
And look around at things 

The knot of houseplants in the window. 
A sketch of an Italian Villa on the wall. 
Coats hanging by the stairs.
Thumb sticks in the umbrella stand.
Stuff.

Barefoot I walk out into the garden, my head bowing under the fragrant free honeysuckle
The wind is loud but I can still hear the bickering crows around the pond to the East
The Wisteria around the gate arch is doing well but won’t bloom for a couple more years yet.
I wonder what those few years will bring
It’s been a long lonely week 

Albert appears 
Looking surprised as always. 
He’s annoyed by something and swishes his tale
I drink my tasteless coffee
And shiver.

Sunday morning.
And no plan for the day.
As yet

Kitchen table, stronger coffee.
The covid swab today is negative
Fucking finally…….


49 comments:

  1. I'm glad you're negative once more. Now you can mix safely, when you have the energy to do so. It's horrible to feel lonely

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    1. I was just been a bit Queeny , It was 5 am after all

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    2. You can be whatever you like, whenever you like. It's good to vent when you need to (in every sense whilst you have no sense of smell)

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  2. A long road, made longer by isolation with only the sound of your wind for company. Soon be over.

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    1. And my wind has such a melancholy tone

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    2. Losing your sense of smell has an upside.

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    3. Certainly in this house , it does

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  3. Rejoice and give thanks to The Lord. As the Trelawnyd church is no longer functioning, you will have to travel elsewhere to thank Him in person.

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  4. Glad the test was negative this morning!

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    1. Me too, it’s my last full time week this week

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  5. You have a lot of fans out here wishing you well. I know that doesn't help you with the loneliness, but we are thinking of you and hoping the best for you. Hope your breathing gets better very soon. Covid sucks big time.

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    1. Yes the residual problems can’t be underrated , I didn’t quite realise that fact Karren, thank you for you4 kind words

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  6. At last! Here's hoping you will soon wake up and smell the coffee - literally. xx

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    1. Do you know, as a complete foodie, I am so missing tasting my food. And bucket of coffee

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  7. Hang in there John. We are all pulling for you.

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    1. I know, like I said, I was just being a drama Queen

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  8. Hoping this crap is at an end for you!

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  9. Negative test results means you are on the upswing! Hopefully the worst is over. Isolation is no fun.

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  10. You do know this was your Karma for telling people some time back that you tested positive, and then only belatedly telling people you had tested negative... after you'd gone out shopping. 😎😎😎

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    1. The rules, were as I recall a but fuzzy but I’m not going to argue x

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  11. Wonderful writing about what is around, what is happening, how you feel. Sounds like a day for a scenic drive, with the windows down,

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    1. I went to the beach , and blew the cobwebs away

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  12. Nice writing, John. So glad for the negative result at last. I hope the physical recovery follows very soon. xx

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    1. All I need is a second neg in the morning

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  13. Glad to hear you tested negative! That's great news! You have done a nice job of describing your morning and your mood. Now you can build up your energy and strength again so you can get back to enjoying your lovely life there.

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  14. Sorry you are still suffering but good that you now have a negative result. After suffering repeated sinus infections resulting in being unable to breathe through my nose (which is very frightening experience at night) my ENT specialist recommended using Neilmed Sinus Rinse (available from Amazon) which helped clear all the thick gunk. Perhaps you could add a pack to your next Amazon buying spree - not very exciting but might make you feel better! Sheila

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    1. I’ve just bought some shiela , great idea , I can sympathise with the fear , it’s quite distressing

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  15. John, I hope and pray you feel so much better soon. I ended up having covid in March. I had done everything right and still got it. The disappointment was palatable. I still have very little sense of taste. I never lost the sense of smell. Very strange but what it is. The idea of what is normal is exhausting. Praying for you to regain your strength in all things.
    Joyce in Indiana

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    1. The numbers (available)seem sky high again , those official ones that is

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  16. Finally! I'm glad the worst is over, John.

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    1. Indeed…..and I’m not flying again until Oct lol

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  17. Because of the relatively high rate of false positives with the rapid tests, would it be wise to take another one in a day or two, before going out into the world? I hope you get your sense of smell and taste back soon. Food and drink are two of the great small pleasures of life.

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    1. I’ve got to test negative again tomorrow morning before going back to work

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  18. John - this post - was like a poem to me. And the end, "fucking finally" was perfect beyond perfect!!!! So glad you're neg, and hope you'll be well and kicking up your heels soon!

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    1. Hey ho, I’m feeling much better and far less dramatic …I took the dogs to the beach and strong winds blew away covid and my headache

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    1. Sorry John, I seem to think that your blog and Rachel's are an outlet for my voice. It's not my blog. I apologize and deleted a very long comment. I do hope you recover soon and that you can again enjoy the smell of brewing coffee. It's the simple things, isn't it? Ranee (MN) USA

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    2. Please comment no need to apologise you are always thoughtful and polite

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  20. Hallelujah! I hope you can stop and SMELL the coffee some day soon.

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    1. Oh I’m never going to take the smell of good ground coffee for granted ever again

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  21. Nothing wrong with being a bit dramatic sometimes. I loved reading this post. The stillness and the thoughts. Happy you are at the end of the isolation and hope not long before you can return to the simple pleasures of life again.

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  22. Fucking finally, indeed. It's scary how much this affected your breathing.

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