I met my friend Ruth for breakfast this morning before she takes a leave of absence from work.
She is going to Northern Scotland for a few months to work in a community collective . Work on allotments and gardens for room and board .
She is grieving and needs to heal
I shall miss her but her choice to go is a wise one.
We all need time to recuperate when we are emotionally damaged
So many of us ignore the danger signals and soldier on regardless .
And that often helps no one.
I hope she returns.
I hate goodbyes
Always have
I once took Nu to the airport, many moons ago now, when she was leaving to work in Saudi Arabia and I had to stop on the Snake Pass from Manchester to Sheffield in order to sob over the steering wheel. So upset I was, a farming type woman in a land rover stopped to ask if I was alright.
After work when I was driving up to the village last night at dusk, I spied a rainbow arcing gracefully
Over from the south , the tip of which seemed to lightly Land on the top of the Gop.
Several people stopped their cars in order to take the obligatory photo.
The rainbow I’d like to think is a sign from Auntie Gladys
The old lass is 103 today and as usual the village make voice choir who originally adopted her years ago has played tribute to her
I miss her
But a hello
Brilliant photo! I’d take the rainbow as a sign ... of something...
ReplyDeleteOr nothing x
DeleteI hope the complete change helps heal her grief, and she returns refreshed. It's strange how the fascination of a rainbow never leaves us. Even at the ripe old age of 67, they always delight me. One of those phenomena that makes you realise there's something much, much bigger than you going on. xx
ReplyDeleteYes….it felt rather magical x
DeleteI have a lump in my throat reading this.
ReplyDeleteI didn’t mean it to sound sad
DeleteI trust that you went up there later with your spade.
ReplyDeleteI’d forgotten about the pots of gold
DeleteWonderful post. Brought me to tears.
ReplyDeleteReally I didn’t mean it to be sad
DeleteI think not tears of sadness but of emotion.
DeleteI hope that nurturing growing plants and working in the soil helps your friend Ruth's grieving and recovery process. You are so right that "soldiering on" is often the default action, with disastrous consequences sometimes.
ReplyDeleteI respect her strength in making that decision
DeleteSuch a pretty rainbow
ReplyDeleteI love the way it arches down onto the village hill
DeleteI hope that Ruth finds peace and healing. Lovely rainbow.
ReplyDeleteI think she will be ok
DeleteHaving done to major geographic moves since 1995, I was thinking recently about departures, those left behind, and those discovered in the new places.
ReplyDeleteMoving on your own is always hard…..you have a life partner which helps x
DeleteLovely rainbow!
ReplyDeleteI hope Ruth returns, refreshed and comforted from her different type work in Scotland, and ready to join you and the others again. Nice you two could have breakfast together today.
Hugs!
I hope so too ..but if she doesn’t that’s ok too, just another friend to visit
DeleteAs you know from helping me with your e mails at my time of grieving - we all have to find our own way through. Some of us find it easier than others. You were my way.
ReplyDeleteYou have always been a dear friend to me pat…why wouldn’t I ?
DeleteI think that's a very brave decision that Ruth has made but I'm sure a good one x
ReplyDeleteAgreed x
DeleteI hope the change of scenery and working with the soil and plants helps Ruth to heal her grief. I know from experience how I love to work and get my hands dirty when recovering; planting seeds and watching them grow is to me like an analogy for new life, new beginnings and a softening to loss.
ReplyDeleteLove rainbows, I always take photos when I see them.
Jo in Auckland
At least she has the opportunity and work support to do this , so many don’t
DeleteNow I want a collective to go to. I'm holding too much grief right now, or maybe always, I don't know anymore.
ReplyDeleteMany of us do…..it’s a heavy burden my friend
DeleteThere is something about a rainbow that always makes people stop and look and appreciate life. We need more rainbows.
ReplyDeleteDon’t we just x
DeleteTrelawnyd doesn't sound big enough for two old queens.
ReplyDeleteGladys in in the next town ,,,so I’m safe
DeleteWhat a nice post this is. It really tells what sort of a friend you are.
ReplyDeleteThank u
DeleteThat is a very nice rainbow. Seeing a rainbow is always a cheerful sight. I take it as a message of more good to come. Loss is hard and sometimes harder for some than others. I hope Ruth finds solace as she explores her new opportunity.
ReplyDeleteI also hate goodbyes. I don't like saying it.
ReplyDeleteGoodbyes are tough. And you're an old softie.
ReplyDeleteOnce, when grief had pulled me down and I couldn't get up, I too went away and being forced to concentrate on a different job, meeting different people, even speaking a different language turned everything around. A year and a half later I felt strong and happy and like myself again and that it was time to go home .. and I did.
ReplyDeleteI remember blubbing on Victoria Station after a girlfriend left London for her native Rome. I'd never felt like that before.
ReplyDeleteRuth will still be able to communicate with you. It is not goodbye. It is not a retreat into silence. Stay in touch. She is doing a good thing for her and I need to do it too or something.
ReplyDeleteDo you want the details of where she’s going
DeleteI know the community, assuming it is the same one. having met a girl who was staying there when I was travelling in Morocco. I have subsequently recommended it to others.
DeleteI hope Ruth can heal after this move. Good friends are so precious.
ReplyDeleteRainbows always feel to me like a message of some sort and bring hope.
It sounds as though Ruth knows what will help her, I hope she finds comfort and friendship there.
ReplyDeleteRainbows are so special aren't they, I used to love seeing them across the valley and once I could see both ends dipping into the Conwy river.
My sister and I followed to the end of the rainbow a while back. You can, you know, we got out of our car and twirled in the sparkle. We were radiant.
ReplyDeleteThat's a great photo of the rainbow. A birthday wish for Auntie Glad!
ReplyDeleteI was just thinking of Auntie Glad! Amazing that she continues on.
ReplyDeleteI dropped my 11 year old niece off at the airport and sobbed like a baby. She had to ring me when she landed to check I was ok. Mortified.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Auntie Gladys!
ReplyDeleteAlways glad to hear news of Gladys! I often remember the stories of her that you shared.
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