Tuesday, 11 June 2019

Healing


We sang our lungs out at choir tonight.
We are giving a mini concert at the village Hall next Tuesday and went through our repertoire
1940's moustached RAF Pilot Jamie was almost in tears in surprised shock
We did so well.

The choir sang a late happy birthday to me and a tenor and Alto
They congratulated me on my new job....in song
Hattie had spilled the beans

Oh , I didn't say did I?
I have a new job! .......I found out at tea time!!!!

My whole nursing career  has been centred around people dealing with catastrophic change
I have worked with devastating mental illness', paralysis after spinal cord injury and multi organ failure on intensive care and so it seemed quite natural for me to be drawn to work in a hospice.
Last Wednesday I had an interview for a full time post at St David's Hospice in Llandudno.
Today I was accepted.
I cried when I received the home call.
Good luck has been a long time coming.

I can't tell you just how I feel tonight.
But I can share just how much my brittle self esteem has started to repair itself at last.
For too long I have felt somewhat discarded and ashamed, bruised and just sad.
Now I feel some control has been returned to me

I stood in the centre of the choir as they sang to me tonight
And I felt............happy


315 comments:

  1. Congratulations, you will be so happy helping the wonderful people who work in hospices.

    ReplyDelete
  2. So delighted for you, congratulations and very best wishes from down under.

    ReplyDelete
  3. You deserve to be happy, you deserve all the best in the world and it will come.

    ReplyDelete
  4. Anonymous9:25 pm

    That is fantastic news! On your way!
    Congratulations!
    KJ

    ReplyDelete
  5. Fan in Seattle9:25 pm

    Hoorah, I must tell you John, just how much I enjoy your blog posts. I get a little zing of happiness when I see you have a new one up.
    The major life changes you have been experiencing are devastating, and you have been handling them with such grace and humor. Keep on Keeping On!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thank you Seattle
      I love your city
      I once had to be led off the space needle observation deck near collapse

      Delete
    2. Fan in Seattle just expressed my sentiments exactly. You deserve so much better than you've had over the past year, and I'm very happy that you, George, Winnie, Mary and Albert will be embarking on a new life.

      Delete
  6. Congratulations! Well deserved. Not easy work, very complex medicine, but such great value.

    ReplyDelete
  7. They knew that to miss this opportunity to hire you, John, would be foolhardy. Congrats to you!!
    Now....away you go!

    ReplyDelete
  8. Oh John Brilliant news. Well done you deserve it. Being recognised as such a great nurse for them and to us. Ace.

    ReplyDelete
  9. So very happy for you, you deserve some good fortune and you will be a blessing in hospice work.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I do deserve some good news don't I

      Delete
  10. Close your eyes, I'm throwing confetti and glitter! So happy for you!

    ReplyDelete
  11. Oh John, I am so happy for you sweetie! xxx

    ReplyDelete
  12. Sitting in the pre-dawn light here in Australia feeling a tear-pricked shiver of relief for this news.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thatmoved me too... I'm a silly sausage , I've cried too much today

      Delete
  13. Well done. I am so pleased for you and hope that you will be very happy in your new job x

    ReplyDelete
  14. Well done chap xx

    ReplyDelete
  15. Excellent news. I was sitting here thinking "I wonder if John heard yet" and I popped in and checked and yayayayayaya! Good for you :) I'm smiling across the pond.

    ReplyDelete
  16. That’s wonderful! Good for you!

    ReplyDelete
  17. Wonderful news and well deserved.

    ReplyDelete
  18. This is great news John...may you be happy and fulfilled in your new job x

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I'll be doing something I think I will be good at

      Delete
  19. great news!!!! i'm so glad you found out so fast. where is Llandudno? will that be where you will be moving? when do you start! i am SO happy for you!

    ReplyDelete
  20. I am over the moon for you John, you really deserve this. Big hugs x

    ReplyDelete
  21. so delighted for you , you will bring so much good to that role ... you so so deserve some good luck !

    ReplyDelete
  22. Well done John! Just what you needed. I am really pleased for you. Things are looking up again. I am so glad a turn has been taken. More of the same in the future. You now have a future.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I do.....and what's more important I feel I do xx

      Delete
    2. It is an important step and a good one.x

      Delete
    3. More importantly, that is one of the least offensive gifs you have inflicted on us. Well done.

      Delete
  23. Wonderful wonderful news. For you, and for the staff and the patients (and their families) at the hospice.

    ReplyDelete
  24. Wonderful news John. Really wonderful. Congratulations!Your luck is changing and you so deserve it!
    I hope you can stay in the choir - they love you and it clearly does you good.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I will stay I mentioned in my interview I need Tuesday nights off to sing

      Delete
  25. Hospice. Well, hope you do well there my friend. How do you feel about the end of life care....what should it consist of, being pain-free, a way to enjoy last days? I've never been comfortable with it, I never had anything to do with it except refer patients at the end of my abilities. It's interesting how my views on the subject have changed, not that I'm in my mid-seventies and have CHF, which will eventually do me in.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Mike,
      I have had little experience of palliative care but I have had considerable experience in dealing with people facing catastrophic change ...I need to feel my way x

      Delete
  26. Sarah Jones9:56 pm

    Brilliant news. Well done and well deserved xx

    ReplyDelete
  27. Absolutely brilliant news. Well done you, you are perfectly suited to hospice work. As someone who has worked for a hospice I know the wonderful staff that work in every section of hospices and the wonderful calming air that permeates in the buildings. Llandudno would be a brilliant place to live too!!

    ReplyDelete
  28. Congratulation. Right time, right place - all our experiences inform what we do, and you sound ideally suited to this work. I hope you're going to be very happy there. This is the start of a new chapter for you.

    ReplyDelete
  29. Well done John, they obviously knew what they were doing when they chose you. Only special people work in a hospice.
    Does this mean you'll be able to stay in your lovely cottage?

    ReplyDelete
  30. Wish I could give you a hug. That's wonderful news x

    ReplyDelete
  31. I am so pleased for you. Things are on the up!

    ReplyDelete
  32. Congrats on the new job. You'll do well in Palliative, you genuinely enjoy people.

    New job, new interest, new outlook on life.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. New friends, new learning, new place

      Delete
  33. Congratulations. I am so happy for you. You have so many people here who care about you. Please try not to feel so horrible about yourself. You are loved. xx

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I feel it andi
      I felt it today with my friends and family messages
      I felt it at choir and I feel it now with you all

      Delete
  34. Yesss! So very happy for you.
    Palliative care nurses are extraordinary humans who support us through our darkest hours with compassion and strength. The hospice certainly hired the right person.

    ReplyDelete
  35. Awww John so glad to hear your news and the profound positive impact it has had on your well being. You take care and....onwards 'c buckle cheeks' ☺ xx

    ReplyDelete
  36. when you said you were waiting to hear about the job, and how important it was to you, the first thing I thought is I bet it is at an hospice. I think it will be a perfect fit. Congrats

    ReplyDelete
  37. .....'chuckle cheeks'..... Julie x

    ReplyDelete
  38. Congratulations John,about time the skies brightened for you

    ReplyDelete
  39. Anonymous10:18 pm

    What wonderful news John. I'm so happy for you.

    Sandra R.
    x

    ReplyDelete
  40. Very well done. I am so happy for you. xxx

    ReplyDelete
  41. I see a phoenix rising from ashes and what a phoenix it is!
    Congratulations John

    ReplyDelete
  42. How wonderful John! Of course you were hired. We all know how wonderful you are. Congratulations!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I was up against some stiff competition

      Delete
    2. I previously worked with hospice nurses and you show the characteristics of one who will treat the patients with dignity and respect. That would have come through in your interview. So happy for you.

      Delete
  43. Wonderful news John,congratulations, very well deserved xx

    ReplyDelete
  44. Well done, so pleased for you :)

    ReplyDelete
  45. If I needed hospice, or anyone in my family needed hospice, I cannot imagine a more caring, devoted person than you to help me! Congratulations, they sure picked the right guy!

    ReplyDelete
  46. Anonymous10:30 pm

    John, I don't often comment but I check in with you daily - - this is marvelous news and I'm sure it's just the sort of positive change that will help sort you out. Best of all however, is that this Hospice is VERY lucky to have someone like you join their team! I'll look forward to following your progress. Congratulations!!

    ReplyDelete
  47. Fabulous news, onwards and upwards xx

    ReplyDelete
  48. That’s wonderful news! Congratulations and wishing you the very best.

    ReplyDelete
  49. John, that is great news. We all feel that we "know" you, but only through your blog, however I think hospice care would be something you would be very good at. They must have known that had a good one when they interviewed you! (Any chance you can bring one of the pets as a therapy animal?!) I'm so glad you've had a positive turn. All the best! -Jenn

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Winnie is already waiting in Bluebell

      Delete
  50. Oh well done! So happy for you xxxx

    ReplyDelete
  51. "Way to go" dear John - so happy for you!
    You deserve much happiness from here on out - so proud of you.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I'm proud of me too...and that's a new feeling this past year

      Delete
  52. When you held your postcard competition, I sent you one with a road sign pointing to a place called 'Happy'.Looks like you are heading there.Congratulations on your new job.x

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I have it still in my bathroom above the shaving mirror so I can see it

      Delete
  53. Ian so happy for you, well deserved you star xxxx

    ReplyDelete
  54. Wonderful news John, you deserve the happiness.
    Hugs
    Jo

    ReplyDelete
  55. Joan (Devon)10:58 pm

    Wonderful news! With all your nursing experience I should think hospice work is ideal for you. I'm so happy for you.

    ReplyDelete
  56. ❤️ - you just made me smile - long may this new feeling continue, you deserve it xx

    ReplyDelete
  57. How wonderful. Just popped in here before bed time, now I am happy for you. xxx

    ReplyDelete
  58. CONGRATULATIONS! I'm so happy for you! You rock, John.

    ReplyDelete
  59. Hurray John, the tide has turned in your favor now and in future, and this job in hospice sounds a perfect match for you.

    ReplyDelete
  60. How wonderful! You deserve a good break and a change. Onwards and upwards you dear loving soul!

    ReplyDelete
  61. Congratulations John So happy for you. Xx

    ReplyDelete
  62. What a difference from your earlier blog. Never doubt your gifts John. They will always bring you what you need x

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Yes mave. The fickle finger of fate eh?

      Delete
  63. Fantastic news. Well done. This is the beginnings that you so need, and deserve.

    ReplyDelete
  64. At last! The best news ever. A new exciting chapter, about blooming time.

    LXX

    ReplyDelete
  65. Congratulations! So happy for you.

    ReplyDelete
  66. Congratulations John. They are very lucky to have you and i know you will be fantastic!!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thank you dearheart...i miss u and spines

      Delete
  67. Over here, madly clapping and cheering! Congrats!!!
    Cat

    ReplyDelete
  68. I am so happy to hear you sounding so happy and positive. It’s been quite a while. It seems sincere. Your patients and families will be so lucky to have a nurse with your experience, knowledge and kind heart. I hope this is just the beginning in a new and wonderful chapter of your life. Is it a full time position? It will be different for you not to work night shifts! Much luck and love to you.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. This is the very first time in a year that ive felt on top of things

      Delete
  69. My heart shares in your happiness, John. They have made a very wise decision, indeed. How lucky they are to have you on board. Hugs, Elaine

    ReplyDelete
  70. Congrats to you. It is nice that you have something good to celebrate.

    ReplyDelete
  71. Congratulations John. Onwards and upwards xx

    ReplyDelete
  72. WOO HOO! FAR OUT! CONGRATULATIONS! WELL DONE!

    ReplyDelete
  73. Anonymous11:42 pm

    Couldn't happen to a nicer guy,I'm crying with happiness for you. Love Margaret x

    ReplyDelete
  74. I cannot think of anyone I know who would be more suitable for working in a hospice than you. You will bring compassion, understanding and tactfulness to the job. Does this mean you can hang on to the cottage or will you be moving to Llandudno?

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Lots of logistics to sort...but things are hopeful. Thank you for your continued support old friend xx

      Delete
  75. So very happy for you. I was worried when you took a few days off... I am thankful that you are back & got that job.

    ReplyDelete
  76. A hearty congratulations, John!! What good news. No more shift work, I hope? Your warmth, compassion and good sense of humour will be find the perfect outlet in your new job.

    ReplyDelete
  77. If I ever need hospice care, I want you to be my nurse. No one I would trust more.

    ReplyDelete
  78. This is the best news today! You will be perfect in that job and I think you will be very happy. What a day!

    ReplyDelete
  79. God Bless You!!!! You'll go on my prayer list--people who do this wonderful work need to be tended to. Congrats!!

    ReplyDelete
  80. Congratulations! Lovely news! Good for you!
    Kathy in Ontario, Canada

    ReplyDelete
  81. John, I am so very happy for you. You deserve this lift to your life. I hope and pray this means you can keep your cottage and that your life continues to even out.
    Keep looking up
    Much love and many hugs to you
    Joyce in Indiana

    ReplyDelete
  82. Anonymous12:33 am

    Congratulations! Although I know you only through your blog, I can't think of a better "fit" than you and hospice nursing. And the emotional self-care skills you've been forced to learn this last year will stand you in good stead with your new job. Carol - a reader in Philadelphia

    ReplyDelete
  83. What wonderful news today you put a spring in my step! A new job to make you sing and sing from the heart!

    ReplyDelete
  84. About fucking time! You deserve this! Your nursing skills, compassion and more importantly your humor will be a gift to your patients and their families. Having worked with hospice through the deaths of my husband, mother and mother-in-law I met many great nurses, and I bet you will be awesome! Will this involve shift work? Active nursing or admin?

    ReplyDelete
  85. I'm so late responding...you're probably tucked into your jimjams and hopefully, fast asleep by now. But I am so very happy and excited for you John. Congratulations! X

    ReplyDelete
  86. Anne V12:58 am

    Beautiful, just beautiful.

    ReplyDelete
  87. Anonymous1:01 am

    So happy for you John, I know you will do a great job. May this be the beginning of wonderful changes for you. susan Hamilton




    ReplyDelete
  88. Oh how wonderful John!!! Don't forget that they are lucky to be getting you!

    Now is the time for your luck to turn around and for all sorts of good things to come your way--I feel it in my heart for you. Your new life is just beginning, my friend! ❤🍷

    ReplyDelete
  89. Barbara Anne1:09 am

    Halleulajah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You'll be perfect in the hospice setting as you're a wonderfully caring person with a good sense of humor, too. So needed by all.

    Well done to you and the entire choir as you all sang your hearts out at choir tonight. Would love to have heard y'all (always a plural says this life-long Southerner!).

    Happy dancing for you!!

    ReplyDelete
  90. Happy happy joy joy to you.

    ReplyDelete
  91. It is not luck. This is what you have been working toward all your life! You will be perfect! Hospice was a lifesaver (not literally) but you know what I mean...with my dad they helped us ...they prepared us and towards the end we did it all by ourselves. It was such a blessing and I don't hardly ever use that word.

    ReplyDelete
  92. How fanbloodytastic is that John, woohoo, well done. What a great lift to your spirits and hopefully fortunes. I couldn't think of anyone I know who would suit this role better than you (despite not ACTUALLY knowing you) Compassion and care I am sure are your middle names. A hearty Congrats from my small village to yours!!

    Jo in Auckland

    ReplyDelete
  93. I rarely comment but read you every day. What a brilliant change for you. With your big heart you will be incredible.
    My heart is so much lighter today. You have so many good people that feel the same.
    Abundant blessings to you.

    ReplyDelete
  94. This made me so happy. I know you will be great at this job, you will make a real difference in people at that stage of life. Love you.

    ReplyDelete
  95. This is such wonderful news. Congratulations to you.

    ReplyDelete
  96. Very please for you John, I know it's late, you fit to this job like a glove, me personally would not be able to do, the things you do and the way you ,do it , well done 🌸🌸🌸

    ReplyDelete
  97. Hearty congratulations - I am so very happy for you! Your talents are sorely needed. God go with you!

    ReplyDelete
  98. this made me feel so good. not that you got the job but yes of course that but that you are healing. feeling/felt happy.

    ReplyDelete
  99. Wow. How brave you are. I'm so happy for you. And for the hospice patients, family and staff. They've landed themselves a good one!

    ReplyDelete
  100. so so happy for you- a huge Texas-sized 'yeehaw' your way- enjoy-
    regards as always-
    barb

    ReplyDelete
  101. I'm smiling and pleased from ear to ear and head to toe. This is so good.

    ReplyDelete
  102. I wouldn't be happier if I'd gotten the job myself!
    Lynn

    ReplyDelete
  103. OMG, I'm so so so happy for you. Not long ago I had thought that you would be a perfect fit for the patients in a hospice. It sounds like on this long and winding road you have finally turned a corner. Brighter days ahead I'm thinking!!

    ReplyDelete
  104. Hey, what a happy post. I need this kind of positivity in my life.

    Congratulations. Seriously. How fantastic that positive change is happening.

    ReplyDelete
  105. Wonderful news! Congratulations, John.

    ReplyDelete
  106. Congratulations! What wonderful news! So glad you didn't have to wait longer to find out. It takes a special person to do hospice work, and I'm sure they recognized that you are that special person.

    ReplyDelete
  107. Congratulations - you are certainly due for a change in luck and I am sure they will be very lucky to have you!

    ReplyDelete
  108. Congratulation, John! I am so happy for you.

    ReplyDelete
  109. I must add my congratulations to all the other wishes.
    I am just so happy for you.
    Now I have to look yo where you will work.
    parsnip xx

    ReplyDelete
  110. I don't often comment, but I am so happy for you tonight. And I feel your success is completely well deserved!

    ReplyDelete
  111. Anonymous3:31 am

    Your a fighter, congratulations, Jo

    ReplyDelete
  112. Congratulations! So glad to hear your good news. Best of wishes for you.

    ReplyDelete
  113. We all have known how wonderful you are, glad to know that you know now too. Congratulations. :)

    ReplyDelete
  114. Wonderful news! Congratulations!

    ReplyDelete
  115. Congratulations John. When I was getting divorced I needed a full time job and the perfect one finally came along. I glad it did for you as well. I think you will make an amazing hospice nurse. You're a kind man John and someone who is leaving this earth needs kindness. I think they made the right choice with you.

    ReplyDelete
  116. How wonderful!!! How perfect!!! I am so very happy for you. Congratulations dear friend. Everything is, indeed, looking up for you. Another door has opened!

    ReplyDelete
  117. YAY!! I'm so happy for you! Compassionate end of life care is such a comfort to both patient and family. All the best in this new beginning.

    And I'm even happier to hear that you feel some deep happiness again. That is huge. You brought tears to my eyes with that statement. xx

    ReplyDelete
  118. Now that's great news, John! Congratulations from Perth WA, I'm very glad for you!

    ReplyDelete
  119. A new job, a new beginning. Yippee!

    ReplyDelete

I love all comments Except abusive ones from arseholes