William chasing bees
I got home from work at around 8.30 am and walked the dogs during a torrential rain shower which had lasted several hours .
As I made myself eggs and toast George rested in his usual spot under the table and the terriers curled up together on the sofa to sleep.
Winnie watched me very carefully in the kitchen....waiting for scraps
I fed Albert and cleaned muddy paw prints from the table and the window sill and from the back of my new chair
I then mopped the floor and washed the pots .
I pottered listening to the radio .......some shit about brexit
It was well past 11.30 when I finally decided it was time for bed
I locked the kitchen door and walked into the living room
I could tell by his position and the fact that Mary was sat bolt upright looking worried that
William had died in his sleep.
Like with people, when a dog's soul leaves its body it leaves behind a stillness which screams at you
My sweet, sweet natured old boy.
An animal with the gentlest of souls I ever knew had just faded away without fanfare or attention......and All I could think of was him at eleven years old joyfully chasing bees around the back garden like a loon.....
.....And that's exactly where I have buried him.
Oh, John. My heart goes out to you.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear that William has died. I know how heartbreaking this is, but there is some solace in him slipping away peacefully, without you having to make that most dreadful of decisions.
ReplyDeleteOh John, I am so sorry, darling sweet William
ReplyDeleteRee x
So sorry John, chin up. Cathy
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry John. That's just heartbreaking. I'm glad to know that he went peacefully in his sleep, though. Take care of yourself and the rest of the pack. Hugs to you all. xoo
ReplyDeleteI am really sorry, John.
ReplyDeleteOh dear sweet William - hugs to you too x
ReplyDeleteI know that stillness.
ReplyDeleteMuch love and hugs to you.
gayle xx
My thoughts are with you and the other animals x
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you and rejoices for the gentle sleep of a much loved friend rip William x you will all regroup to get through the next days x thank god for the times that animals give us what we need and leave us better equipped to deal with the nonsense of life xxxxxxxx
ReplyDeleteHeartbroken for you John x
ReplyDeleteVery sorry. I know how much you love your pets.
ReplyDelete((john))
ReplyDeleteWilliam spared you having to make the decision. What a great and beloved life he had with you.
Love from Amsterdam
Adie
I am so sorry to hear this news, sending you a huge hug.x
ReplyDeleteBless his heart and what a lovely place to lay him to rest. Take care.
ReplyDeleteRun free William xx
ReplyDeleteAw John, I'm so sorry to read this, but thankful you didn't have to make the hardest decision. It's been a hell of a year for you, thank goodness you have the other animals to comfort you. How lovely that you buried him in the place he loved. Hugs, John x
ReplyDeleteSweet William. How lucky he was to slip away in a warm quiet room, in comfort, and without drama or fuss. But such a shock for you and Mary to find him so. I am so very sorry for your loss John. X
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to read this. Sweet William indeed...Hugs from Scotland.
ReplyDeleteLesleyx
Oh John. He went in his own time, in his favourite place, with all his furry family around him, and with the sounds of Dad pottering close by.
ReplyDeleteRight until the last moment he loved you enough to spare you that final agonising decision.
Rest in Peace Sweet William, you were loved ♥️🌹 xx
Beautifully expressed !
DeleteJane
I am sending love to you and the menagerie.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry
ReplyDeleteAnother fur baby star. Shining brightly sweet William. Big hugs to you.xxx
ReplyDeleteJohn I'm so sorry to hear about Sweet William. Sending you much love and hugs xxx
ReplyDeleteRest in peace, sweet William. Hugs, John.
ReplyDeleteGoodbye, sweet William. We have all enjoyed your antics. Rest, now.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, John. It's hard to lose our 'furry little tragedies.' Sending you and the whole pack a strong hug.
ReplyDeleteNice way to go. x
ReplyDeleteSo sorry John. But a mercifully peaceful ending, surrounded by his family.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry, John.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry John. Thankfully he went peacefully in his sleep, surrounded by the love that fills your home. Rest in peace sweet William.
ReplyDeleteBless his sweet soul.
ReplyDeleteSo very, very sorry. R. I. P. Sweet William. Xx
ReplyDeleteOh my, how sad for you- may his soul rest in peace.
ReplyDeleteSuch a peaceful end for William, but heartbreaking for you. Too many holes in your heart this year. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteOh John, l am so so sorry at the news of William.
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you both did not have that last dash to the vets with all the drama that entails.
Also, he was surrounded by his family when he died and you know they know and will be peaceful in themselves knowing what has happened 'cos we know they know about these things, don't they.
Lovely little chap R.I.P.Best Boy xx
Tess x
I'm so sorry John, dear sweet William. I'm glad he had a peaceful end and the decision wasn't on you. How lovely that he is close by, I love this photo. You have had a cack year John. Lots of love xxxx
ReplyDeleteIt has all been said. So sorry but glad he left you so peacefully and at home with you nearby.
ReplyDeleteWilliam had a wonderful life with loads of love, his doggie pals, Albert and you, he passed at home where there is so much love for him. I hope you can focus on the joy he gave to you all. Xxx
ReplyDeleteso so sorry, they take a piece of our heart with them. RIP William. love sandy
ReplyDeleteOh, tears a falling here as I know the empty place in your heart and home as you begin to miss sweet William. What a good natured gentleman he was. May the happy memories of his loving life he shared with you and the other fur babies comfort you now. Special hugs to Mary at this sad time.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you, too.
So sorry John. xxx
ReplyDeleteDear sweet William .I shall miss him too. May you live long and enjoy your loving memories of him
ReplyDeleteMy tears won't stop. I felt a great fondness for William. Dear William, my favourite dog of them all. My heart goes out to you John. x
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear this sad news. Bless you, it has been such a tough time for you.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear this sad news.
ReplyDeleteawwwwwwwwww. william is now at peace, chasing bumblebees with abandon. my condolences.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. What's that Kipling poem about never giving your heart to a dog? They will break your heart.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry John. Glad he went peacefully in his own home , knowing he was loved.
ReplyDeleteBugger
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss...your hurting heart...
ReplyDeleteI wasn't ready for that. Your title suggested something but your lead up gave me false comfort. I actually caught my breath and now I am crying. At least it was gentle. He was at home surrounded by familiar beings and you didn't have the heartbreak of deciding when to take him to the vets. Dear, dear William. I never met you, but I loved you. Sweet dreams. xx
ReplyDeleteAnother farewell. Goodbye dear fellow.
ReplyDeleteSo very sad but he timed it himself , no hard decisions to be made by you, and a solid bank of memories for you of a much loved boy xx
ReplyDeletejane
So sorry John. Your heart must be broken. What a sweet sweet William he was x
ReplyDeleteAwww! Farewell William.
ReplyDeleteYou have a hug from me. And your animals have a hug as well. The pain is intense I know.
ReplyDeleteCrying as if he had been one of my own.
ReplyDeleteGreat way to go. Considerate to the last.
ReplyDeleteWhat a touching image (or is it a sound) you conjure up: When a soul "leaves its body it leaves behind a stillness which screams at you". Indeed.
Heartfelt commiserations. The butterflies will return.
Oh John, I feel so sad for you. You and William were lucky to have had each other. Sending hugs. xx
ReplyDeleteDear John, I am so sad for you today. Dear William gave you the gift of you not having to make that awful decision. You were a wonderful and much loved friend/parent/companion for him. Saying that doesn't lessen your great loss and sadness, I know. Sending you love and big hugs. Eileen in Dover xxx
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to see this. R.I.P. Sweet William.
ReplyDeleteAch, wat spijt me dat voor je...
ReplyDeleteLian
So sorry John. I have been sitting in my recliner by the windows with my older ginger cat snuggled up on my chest. I looked at him and thought, "My dear boy, you're going to break my heart one day." He is absolutely the most wonderful of friends. Then I read your blog. It brought tears to my eyes. He was well loved and cared for his entire life because he had you. God bless and keep you.
ReplyDeleteHow very sad John,so sorry to hear that news,RIP William.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you.
Vicki x
oh no....the only thing that gets me through is the words from a song "I could have missed the pain but I would have missed the dance". I don't think any of us would miss the dance with our animals.
ReplyDeletePeacefully, surrounded by love, the best way to go. You gave him the best home and life he could have. Do take care, Love and Hugs, David
ReplyDeleteSo sorry, they break our hearts. He will be with Maisie, my best friend's airedale who died yesterday.
ReplyDeleteA Good Boy. It makes me sad, too. Vicki H.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry xxx
ReplyDeleteRest In Peace, sweet boy. Chase those heavenly bees!
ReplyDeleteJohn, we know the boy had the best life possible with you.
Hug, Joyce
John, my heart aches for you, we are never ready. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteGute Reise William (Have a good Journey)
ReplyDelete... words fail me ...
ReplyDelete����
I'm so sorry for your loss of a sweet, gentle friend x
ReplyDeleteI gasped at this. Travelling mercies to him.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, John. Too many tears this year.
ReplyDeleteSuch a peaceful way to leave this earth-it’s how I hope I will go when my time is done. Hugs to you all.
ReplyDeleteYes, it really is the end I would wish for any of my loved ones...and myself!
DeleteI'll be thinking of you John. I love that you were able to bury him in a comforting place. No doubt a few tears were sprinkled in with the soil as ypu worked. Rest well, loyal William.
ReplyDelete"Now cracks a noble heart. Goodnight, sweet prince;
ReplyDeleteAnd flights of angels sing thee to thy rest."
So sorry, John.
It looks like a lovely place for him to rest. It seems he was a kind and thoughtful companion right through the end.
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry John.
ReplyDeleteXoxo
Barbara
This is so sad for you John but so wonderful that he went the way he did. No drama, no mad dash to the vets, and then no final moments in the vets with his family waiting, anxiously at home. This was so calm and peaceful and the others knew and were very respectful of his moment. Sending many hugs to you and all the furries.
ReplyDeleteOh John, I'm so so sorry to hear this. He lived a beautiful life with you. Sending you all love and hugs.
ReplyDeleteSuch a quietly dignified passing for Sweet William. His spirit will stay with you John.
ReplyDeleteArilx
Dearest William, I always loved reading about his gentle nature and sweet - heart. Thoughts with you at this time, I hope you can take comfort in his peaceful slipping away.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. You have had so much sadness lately. The only crumb of comfort is that he went in his sleep and you didn't have to make that awful decision to have him put to sleep. It was the best way for him to go and he has had a lovely life with you. Even so it is another blow for you. Sending you a hug.
ReplyDeleteOh, my eyes fill with tears. Thanks for placing him near the bees.
ReplyDeleteOh, John, I wish I could give you a huge hug right now. Sweet William in the garden.
ReplyDeleteJG I am happy that you both shared many years of happiness together xxx
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. 🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️
ReplyDeleteIm sat crying.My darling went 18 months ago.xx
ReplyDeleteThe writer Pete Hamill described the death of a loved one as feeling "as if a thousand people have just left the room." Oh, that crushing, world-altering stillness. These dear creatures take up such a big part of us that their absence really does feel as if the planet has stopped spinning.
ReplyDeleteSweet William. I'm crying for him, and you.
The very best way to go - peacefully, at home, surrounded by loved and loving ones
ReplyDeleteThe joy of pets in our lives is only matched by the loss when they go.
i am so sorry to hear this john. at least he left peacefully. you are having one hell of a year!
ReplyDeleteAhhhh John, So sorry, so sad.
ReplyDeleteRest in peace Sweet William. So sorry for your loss John but take some comfort that he passed away at home surrounded by those who loved him xx
ReplyDeleteI am so terribly sorry. I know he had a happy and amazing life with you. Be blessed.
ReplyDeleteRest well, Sweet William, in the garden,
ReplyDeleteclose by to the ones who loved you.
I'm so sorry, John.
I am so sorry to hear of William's passing. My thoughts are with you at this sad time.
ReplyDeleteHeartbroken....so very sorry
ReplyDeleteToo many losses for you this year, John. I know well how heartbreaking it is to lose a well loved dog. Thinking of you today...
ReplyDeleteOh John, I am so very sorry. Losing a dear dog such as William can leave a hole in your heart and a void in your life. I am thinking of you all.
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry, John. What more could we ask when our time comes to die - to go peacefully at home surrounded by those we love. We hope for a happy death and I believe that's what happened to William when his dear heart was too tired to go on. He's chasing bees somewhere else now, and his pals will be missing him just as much as you are. It'll be so heartbreaking to watch them mourn, and they will. But it's all part of this life and death wheel we're on. If only I could comfort you in some way - so many loving thoughts are with you today - and in the days to come, and I hope you can feel them. Peace be with you dear John.
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry for your loss. The past several months have been an unbearably sad time in your life and I feel your pain and shed tears when your posts are so sad. Please know you have hundreds of followers who feel the same and would share some of your burden if they could. Prayers going up for your comfort.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for this loss, John. Even a peaceful death leaves a gaping hole in one's heart. xxxx
ReplyDeleteSo sad to hear this 💜 xx
ReplyDeleteThis peaceful ending is what you wish for them but it seems to so rarely happen.
ReplyDeletexo to you all.
love to you, i hope something good comes your way very soon xxx
ReplyDeleteI think you have been steeling yourself for this day, John but nothing prepares you, does it? I'm so sorry it has come. Gentle hugs from Michigan.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry. William was loved.
ReplyDeleteOh my....so sorry for your loss, John.
ReplyDeleteWilliam chose the time and place.
I am so damn sorry. He died surrounded with love, you and the rest of the critters. You gave him the best of homes filled with love and great treats.
ReplyDeleteI add to everyone's kind thoughts for you. William was blessed, as were you. He will be missed.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to read this. William's death was as gentle and undramatic as he was. Take extra special care of yourself and your other dogs and Albert, 2018 has really had it in for you.
ReplyDeleteOh John, I'm sorry. I know you'll miss him terribly and so will we. Hugs and kisses to you all.
ReplyDeleteSo sad for you....I am crying with everyone else. The only positive is that you didn't have to make " the decision" . Having had 5 cats, and only on 2nd dog.....just one cat died without intervention!
ReplyDeleteLots of Love to you all. Xx
ps.I had to psyche myself up to read the post when I saw the heading.
Digging in a spot where he'd been happy,a spot in which to place your sweet friend, a hard to get through, though beautiful and perfect,final gift to him.
ReplyDeleteAt times like this I wish words could become hugs for you, and for his furry family that miss him,too.-Mary
Bless him. Love and hugs for you and the other babies. x
ReplyDeleteOh John, Sweet William. I am so sorry. He rests in the best possible place and he lived the best possible life thanks to you. xx
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry, John. I am glad that William had a peaceful going. I think it is nice that William waited for you to be home and you were able to take him on that walk. Precious moments that you can cherish. Much love to you. I know you miss him dearly.
ReplyDeleteCrying for your loss. Rest peacefully, sweet William
ReplyDeleteXxxxxx
ReplyDeleteOh John, such sad, sad news....but you gave William the very best life you could, and he knew just how much you loved him. Thinking of you and sending virtual hugs to you and the others sue xx
ReplyDeleteBless you, darling John - and lovely William for everything he has been. So hard to say goodbye xo
ReplyDeleteDear John, I’m so sorry. My heart is heavy for you! You have wonderful memories with William. I pray they will comfort you. Gabs
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear this John x
ReplyDeleteA sea of sorries with mine in there too. I'm in Australia thinking of you and your sweet William x
ReplyDeleteSo sorry John, shedding tears for dear William and for you.
ReplyDeleteAlison from Shropshire.
I'm so sorry to read this John. A peaceful end to a sweet life. Sending hugs. X
ReplyDeleteHeartbreaking, I feel for you right now. Bless him.
ReplyDeleteBriony
xxxxx
I am sorry to read this, I've experienced exactly the same thing 3 months ago. My boy went to sleep and I found him all curled up but his soul had left in his sleep. I still find this very difficult to talk about but for him it was the less traumatic way to pass over. Having had to make that decision many times in the past this was the best way to leave this plane. Sending love to you and yes, remember all the happy times becuase that is what they leave us. xx
ReplyDeleteI'm so, so sorry for your loss. No matter how much we try to 'prepare' we're never ready to say goodbye to them x
ReplyDeleteDear sweet John: What a shock I received in reading your blog, that William had left so soon. He left quietly and peacefully, but in doing so, has taken a large part of your heart with him. What a precious and sweet soul he has been. Please accept my sincere condolences. Love you and your blog, and wish you were my neighbor!
ReplyDeleteSo so sorry, John.
ReplyDeleteSo very,very sorry x
ReplyDeleteNever ever commented - ever, but follow with love and respect. My heart is with you and all your furries - it was just that time. ❤ X X
ReplyDeleteAw John, I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry John. Once again I am crying over one of your beloved pets. I know Sweet William had a wonderful life with you. Be thankful that he went ever so peacefully in his sleep. That in itself is a blessing not to have had to make that final decision. I know your heart is breaking as mine is breaking for you. I pray that 2019 will bring you much needed and deserved happiness. Sending love to “all” that reside in Bwthyn-y-lian Cottage. Take care. xx
ReplyDeleteSo sorry John. Losing one's partner is like tearing oneself apart andthe company of those dogs was life blood in such a difficult year. One faint glimmer - you didn't have to make the decision and take him to the vets - dying in one's sleep is how all of us would like to go. Much love.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss of dear William, John. Bless him, though, for departing so peacefully. I suspect I know just how much he will be missed
ReplyDeleteSusan M
Very, very sorry John. So hard to lose a dog.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry John xx
ReplyDeleteI’m so sorry.
ReplyDeleteSorry for your loss he will be missed by you and the others.
ReplyDeleteHeather
I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a dog is losing something pure and precious. I don't know you and I didn't know William, but I'm still crying.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. They forever leave holes but time does help heal. <3 from the US. Amy
ReplyDeleteLeave holes in our hearts*
DeleteSo sad John �� but he passed peacefully at home surrounded by everyone that loved him xx
ReplyDeleteI knew what your post would say and I read it anyway, starting my day still in bed with my great loon on my feet and tears....
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry he's gone and so pleased it was beautiful
Rip sweet boy
Sending you hugs from Texas. I know you will miss his sweet presence and steadfast love.
ReplyDeleteOh John. A perfect exit for William, but such a sadness for you.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry.
ReplyDeleteFamiliar domestic noises, breathing and snores of his four-legged chums, all the smells and comfort of home, lucky dog to slip away in peace. Not a total shock for you, but still sad. You gave him a good life and a good end.
ReplyDeleteYes I agree, surrounded by the comfort and love of his pack and master. The sadness is the price we pet owners pay for years of fun and trusting devotion. Big hugs John x
DeleteMy thoughts are with you,so glad he went gently at home,considerate right to the end.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry.
ReplyDeleteMay memories of happy times together with William ease your heartache.
ReplyDeleteso sorry for your loss, but as others have said, you do have many happy memories of him that no one can/will take away.
ReplyDeleteI am heartbroken for you, and remembering my own Little Dog Bo whom I will miss forever. May you all comfort one another, you and your family of loving pets who give so much and ask so little.
ReplyDeleteDear William. My deepest sympathy, John.
ReplyDeleteThank you all so much...
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for you all.
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you. May you find comfort in the fact that William left this world close to his best person and fellow four leggers in his warm and cozy home.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to read this.
ReplyDeleteKnowing it would happen soon doesn't make it any easier, I am sure.
ReplyDeleteRIP William. You were spared that last journey to the vet. God bless. Ali x
ReplyDeleteI love reading your blog although I never comment but I just wanted to say I'm very, very sorry to read about William. xxx
ReplyDeleteSo sorry and upset to hear about sweet William. Take good care John♥ xxxx
ReplyDeleteSo hard for you, but an easy death; a good death. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Xxx
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry to hear that. It breaks my heart.
ReplyDeleteDon't have the words John.....just....xxxxxxxx
ReplyDeleteSuch heart break! So sorry John for you and your furry clan. Ruth in Oxnard California
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. xoxo
ReplyDeleteI’m so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs from Canada.
Oh John. Darling William. He made his own decision about the time to go. Now he’s chasing bees again with no aches or pains. I’m so sad for you. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry John, sending love.
ReplyDeleteAw bless hugs to all of you. He did it his own gentle faithful way so that you did not have to make the decision. And what a lovely place to bury him and a beautiful memory. They say when someone passes over that you should go tell it to the bees. xx
ReplyDeleteSuch sad news, but a mercifully he slipped away surrounded by home comforts and with his furry friends and favourite human nearby. So hard when they go, but a perfect place to bury him, amidst the bees. Hugs xox
ReplyDeleteFarewell to William, chasing bees in all our hearts.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry. William had the most loving home possible and now is at rest in your lovely garden.
ReplyDeleteOh John, so sad for you. Happy for William: A walk, the sound of Daddy in the kitchen, curled up with a loving buddy, at the end of a life well lived.
ReplyDeleteAnd still you share....you are one special guy. Xx
ReplyDeleteTeresa
Chasing bees forevermore. Rest now William, your work is done.X
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad William died on his own terms, feeling secure and happy in his own home. So often we have to take them to the vet to do the deed and it makes losing them so much worse. I'm so sorry for your loss. x
ReplyDeleteDear Sweet William...may we all have such a peaceful end. So sorry for the loss of your beloved William.
ReplyDeleteI'm very sorry John, for your loss rip
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry😓😓😓.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry That is the very best way to go though. May you rest with the angels William after an amazing and well cared for life!!
ReplyDeleteJohn I am a regular reader of your blog and have been for a very long time. I have never posted before but I have howled with laughter at your many hilarious adventures, totally identified with your many nursing stories which are so very reminiscent of my own and sobbed my way through your losses. I just can't believe what a terrible year you have had and I am so very sorry.... sending you love and kind thoughts Karen
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry John. Perhaps you could plant some sweet williams on top of his resting place in the garden. We have 3 cats buried in our garden and they each have their own special plant guarding them.
ReplyDeleteDear sweet William, how so very sad to hear. How lovely he could die curled up with his siblings after an ideal day in the life of a dog. And what a perfect place for him to be buried, with the butterflies dancing above him.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about William.Even when one knows it's likely to happen, it's still a shock, a jolt, when it does.
ReplyDeleteI hope that knowing his death was quick and peaceful will bring you some comfort when the shock has worn off.
So, so sorry for your loss, John.
ReplyDeleteOh John, I'm so sorry to read about your sweet William's death.
ReplyDeleteA gentle death; a quiet slipping away during peaceful sleep beside Mary; a contented last sigh for being home with family as life ebbs away; a blissful dream of chasing bees in the garden and of walks and of car rides and of sausages, and of being much loved; and so it is a tearful goodbye we whisper to sweet William, for whom we have great affection. Thank you for sharing William with us, John. Hugs from Canada.
ReplyDeleteOn days like this, I am sorry this is blog land. So many of of would be by your side with tea and hugs and comfort. This has been one hella 2018 for you my friend. Abundant, warm hugs.
ReplyDeleteI know too well how you feel but then we go out and do it again. And we have a sweet new “William “ to love and enjoy. And while that sweet pup is gone, he really is never gone and always there in his old favorite spots.
ReplyDeleteSending love & sympathy