Thursday, 24 May 2012
* I don’t want to achieve immortality through my work. I want to achieve it through not dying.
I will be turning 50 in one weeks time.
and I have said this all before
Suddenly I feel middle aged
I felt even older this morning when I was handing my patient over to a new staff nurse on the unit.
Over half my age and with a shit load more chutzpah than I ever possessed at that age, the staff nurse with his over confident air, even tan and perfect teeth, was just that little too bouncy and youthful at 8.00am for my liking.
Even at 23, I was never like him.
I was the shy guy with no dress sense and a bad haircut.
I was the one with bits of my dinner splashed over the front of my jumper!
This morning,as I was giving report, I could see him excitedly planning his work for the day, and with plenty of exuberance, he launched himself into his clinical work like a Labrador puppy mouthing a bone.
With my sagging jowls feeling even more "saggy", and my eyes looking like piss holes in the snow I left him to it and walked to a colleague in her side room on the way out .
Gently I leaned my weary head on her shoulder and said tiredly "I wish I have perfect teeth and energy to die for!"
My co worker who is a motherly welsh woman, knocked heads with me,
almost bumping my £5.99 reading glasses off my head
"..at least you can make me laugh" she said.......
" I bet Woody Allen is always being told the same thing" I replied
* The title is one of Woody's more thoughtful quotes