A post about nothing……

 I worked the last two nights and walked the dogs after a sleep
Shit it’s almost five pm and already almost dusk.
I ring to see if I can change an eye appointment , no answer
The twins loudly demand their tea, and even Weaver is rubbing my leg in anticipation 
Judus!
I run around and set out the recycling. 
A villager stops to chat for as moment and I ask about his sick brother in law, 


Moments later Animal Helper Pat stops him and asks the same thing. Such is life in small communities.
I unload logs from the car as Roger listens from over the kitchen wall


No goodies on the wall today, 
A day I could have done with one.
I finish laundry and organise a clean outfit for counselling day tomorrow, laying it out on the kitchen chair 
I feed the twins but Weaver has already peed on my fox cushion in what I can only assume as frustration temper.
I wash it but use up all the washing up tabs
Fuck and there’s no milk either



I make a coffee and sit looking at my spotty Ikea plate and jug of plastic tulips.
Mary farts in her sleep
And I wish I was in a sunny cafe in Madrid’s Atotcha 

Youhoooooooo! 
An old lady’s voice. It’s not Pat or Mrs Trellis but another villager I know
She pointed at my recycling and I prepared myself for some sort of neighbourly complaint.
“ look at these beauties braving the elements “ she crooned, pointing to a bit of lane buffering my wall
There, hiding away amongst the weeds were several delicate viola plants 

I had not noticed that the kitchen clock had not been moved back on Saturday . It’s only 4 pm

A violas are metaphor for getting on with the mundane and the ordinary.



Pride


 Royal recognition for the LBGT + community of the armed forces was gratefully received at the National Memorial Arboretum in Staffordshire today as the king gave his respect to the fallen, non serving and serving members of army, navy and airforce. 
The memorial is designed in the shape of a bronze crumpled letter, featuring words drawn from the testimonies of former service personnel affected for the ban of gays in the military  which was only revoked in the year 2000


Someone In The Room

 I’m sat with a patient,
In their room. It’s 12.55
The orientating clock says that clearly 
The patient knows I’m there

Medication has been given and the bed is comfortably made.
The patient is fighting sleep but desperately needs it .
Strange shapes hide behind the television and the wardrobe 
And I sit between them and the bed
The patient knows I am there

Silently I read the news on my tablet. 
I reply to an email and a message or two
And try to sound fatherly when I say
It’s time to sleep. 
The patient knows I am there. 

I watch a silent video about a blind horse
And a chubby gay New Yorker dances in the street
I read news on Gaza
And the reviews of a film I want to see
The patient approaches sleep but knows I am there

Someone is in the room.






FAIRYTALE - ALEXANDER RYBAK - TALÍA GROUP


I was in the audience for this performance …a tour de force for the violin section.
It’s optimistic and bright and mirrors today’s mood. 
Yesterday I reached out to an old friend who I had fallen out with and didn’t get a rejected response .
Most things can be repaired if the willing is there x
And that’s lovely

Frivolity and death


 A shabby chic piece of Danish pottery. Not bought from Ikea but from a nearby store, it pleases me greatly. 
Recently, I’ve been looking into organising my funeral details and am in the process of sorting out a payment plan so I do question the buying of frivolous items such as this little jug, when I’m being made more aware of you can’t take things with you ……

Buying this 13£ piece of pottery is a bit like listening to Miranda Elloway, or Talia Grupo. 
Its similar to going to London to see Nu or my trip to Sheffield next week to see Jane and John H
And is the same as seeing that film at the Storyhouse or enjoying a pad Thai at the Chester Market.

It’s all about self care
It’s about respecting yourself enough to acknowledge you are worth caring about, you are worth the effort in buying a cheap pretty jug for yourself if the mood takes you.

And even if I die tomorrow, I have enjoyed my pretty Danish jug for those 24 hours of ownership

Beautiful




 A friend in the village rang me to ask if she could watch the traitors at my house as her tv is defunct 
She’s had a great time , so far and has drunk all of my gin …..lol, what fun 
Enjoy these lovely videos , and enjoy that the cottage looks and smells lovely after a deep carpet clean 




Ikea

 


One plastic plant in plastic pot
One pair of green kitchen scissors ,
One garlic grater
Two rattan mats ( small)
One rattan mat ( large)
Two spotty plates with elevated rims
One useless plastic box

On reflection I was somewhat reserved in my spending 


I’m so British

 


Another Madrid Choir
Not my beloved Talia Grupo 
But the Madrid Modern Choir
I wish I could let myself go !