I slept heavily for five hours , had an hours tuition on running a team meeting professionally ( my next two clients are on teams on Wednesday) then went to the florists and brought big sprigs of blue larkspur which a bound together to give to my sister Ann for her birthday.
She was out so I left the flowers and card in a watering can
I’m emotionally tired today. One of my patients is delirious and dying and mistook me for their son over the weekend, saying all those things they wanted to say but didn’t have the chance to.
It was a hard listen
I feel emotionally on almost empty this afternoon.
So me and the Welsh went for a paddle at the beach.
Roger loves getting wet. Mary less so. So I carried my old gal and the boys paddled up to our knees and as we did so I let the emotional void fill with cold feet, and chilly sand between my toes.
Roger just barked at the waves and grinned.
Mary rested her head on my shoulder and hugged close
And I’m reminded just how good a hug feels on a sad day
An old man paddling with his Welsh terriers
Well, that would be an emotionally taxing conversation. Glad you got some quality time with the pups.
ReplyDeleteWhat an emotionally draining experience for you in those dark hours. Since the patient has dementia, you or someone else may hear it again if you have another night shift soon.
ReplyDeleteI applaud your means of centering yourself today: time with Mary and Roger and water.
Sleep well tonight!
Hugs!
You've painted such a poignant picture. Hoping you're feeling better and all is well in the cottage. Sleep well, John dear.
ReplyDeleteBeing by the sea when you're emotionally wrung out, is so therapeutic. Glad Mary was there to give you a hug and glad Roger was there to make you smile.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday to Ann. I'm sure she'll love the flowers. xx
My image of you holding Mary brought tears as did the mental picture of the patient saying words meant for a son.
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