Only Me


Another lisping choir’s performance and one I enjoyed from the back row just over Silvia’s left shoulder.
I’ve wrapped Christmas gifts today and sent them. 
And have written some of Trelawnyd Productions recently commissioned Christmas Cards
Fuck me we are becoming a franchise 



I’ve also sent Nu a copy of Kathy Burke’s autobiography a Mind Of My Own , not because it is Christmas soon , but because I enjoyed it so much. 
I suddenly remembered it was nephew Leo’s birthday today , and I was annoyed that I had forgotten it…
I sent money via on line banking and messaged him with instructions to spend it on comics and film tickets. 
He sounded cheerful ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ƒ



I can’t shake the blues today, even though I’ve been busy…..
To chase away a virus inducing sense of loneliness , I’ve made spiced Italian bean soup with pancetta and smoky paprika and have cooked spiced chips laced with garlic and curry powder . I’ve drunk lemon juice spiked lemsip and spent far too long in a hot shower
And I had a good cry with Roger on my knee, over nothing more than a face lick.
Hey ho xx

On reflection , I know where today’s mood came from.
I’ve recently complained to the Post Office that I suspect we residents down Cwm Road are getting deliveries just once a week. I was asked to clarify my worries last night, in a phone to a chirpy woman full of apologies and good humour.
Are there other house residents worried about their post? 
She asked and I told her that I lived alone
So nobody else?…….she repeated and I fell into that trap and said, almost apologetically

No it’s only me 

10 comments:

  1. What a wonderful Christmas card by Trelawnyd Productions!
    Your soup sounds absolutely delicious, and the spiced chips too.
    Some days you need a good cry.
    Stay safe, well, and be kind to yourself, John dear.
    Hugs to you, and the furry ones.

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  2. Joanne6:23 pm

    The choir are cheerful but sometimes feeling lonely just gets the better of you. Enjoy a cosy evening at home.

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  3. Some days we just feel down, for no reason. I find a good cry quite therapeutic at times. It's as if all the little niggles and cares build up and up until they just have to burst out. I hope your crying and Roger cuddling helped.
    I'm sure Leo will enjoy spending his birthday money.
    The Christmas card looks good. T-shirts, tea towels, calendars (not nude ones, please!) and mugs next, perhaps?
    xx

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  4. Barbara Anne7:30 pm

    'Waterloo' is always a delight no matter where you hear it. I'm glad you got to be with the lisping choir when they sang and played it.
    Your soup sounds delicious. I had Campbell's Homestyle Chicken Noodle soup for lunch because I'm under the weather (bother) and it's been raining cats and dogs. DH feels crumby, too, so wonder if we've got the same thing?
    Yes, "tears show clear what the heart holds dear." Dog kisses and cuddles help a lot.
    Hope tomorrow is better in every way for all of us.

    Hugs!

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  5. I don't know if there is comfort in knowing that loneliness comes to everyone - whether in a relationship or not. A good cry will often help and it doesn't hurt to remember that this too shall pass. So much of life is not as we thought it would be, and that includes the good with the bad. I'm always trying to come to terms with that. Hang in there. XO

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    1. I’m only thinking of me and then I’m not going in too deeply in the why’s and wherefores…just feeling things today

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  6. When she asked "So nobody else?" you could say "Well, there are others, but they don't read or write so they are immaterial to this problem."

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    1. Most days you can rationalise things out well, today despite my good intentions I couldn’t,
      I’m brighter now

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  7. Traveller8:33 pm

    You don’t live alone, you have two Welsh, two blacks and many friendly ghosts.

    I miss Albert and I never met him…hod know how I will react when Larry goes!

    Chin up lad - you are admired and loved by many.

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    1. It was just one of those days when you feel what you feel…..

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