I’m on night shift tonight, so on a whim, I indulged myself in one of those jobs, that’s not very important but which takes up a bit of spare time. I searched the cottage for Christmas Tree decorations.
Since my husband left, I have never bought a Christmas Tree.
Some of me felt as though it was an indulgence,
Most of me didn’t want to revisit a happy time
But I remember when I was packing all of his possessions, ready for collection,
I took care to place in sturdy box, his collection of tree decorations, we had bought from places such as Sydney, London and from the Queen of Christmas decoration sellers , New York City.
I never thought I’d have another collection, which have gathered a little dust over the past five years, but I have.
Gifts from bloggers, friends, but mostly from my sister, who has carefully added a bauble here and a fluffy dog there to the name tag of a parcel.
Thirty Eight all told. Some hidden inside tea caddies, put away in obscure corners of the little writing desk in the lounge and in drawers, in boxes throughout the cottage.
Forgotten about until now.
So the useless job of the day was to dust them off and place them all together, like the sweet ending of Pixar’s Toy Story where Andy’s toys are all reunited.
Next year, I have decided, I will have a tree
I suppose the time feels right.
ReplyDeleteThose are such wonderful and unique decorations. Very YOU. It will be a wonderful tree.
ReplyDeleteRecognition of one of the many recoveries from grief is a wonderful and telling thing, and which often takes you by surprise. Finding heart in Christmas again is just one of them. Well done.
ReplyDeleteYay ... a tree to look forward to next year, and it's going to look lovely with all your 'found' decorations on it. :-)
ReplyDeleteWill you be having a star on top of it or a fairy? Personally, I prefer a fairy and that is what we have on ours. The topmost sprig is shoved up her frilly dress.
ReplyDeleteNew happy times. I was thinking what Liz said.
ReplyDeleteYou are deserving of a tree of your own.
ReplyDeleteI think when you bought that chicken ornament your decision to have a tree was sparked.
ReplyDeleteI can wait! 11 or so months will pass quickly. Will expect to see a beautiful tree with all those lovely treasured ornaments, and hope you will have stories to share for each one.
ReplyDeleteI'm off to take mine down, wrap and pack away in the next few days. This coming New Year is to be a huge declutter and clean out one for us..........well that's the plan, again!
Happy New Year John - Mary & Bob
I'll look forward to seeing your Christmas tree John. The time is now right for you. X
ReplyDeleteAnd that is a grand thing to look forward to.
ReplyDeleteYou have an eclectic collection of tree decorations there, John. Each one with its own story. Can't wait to see your tree in all its glory next Christmas. xx
ReplyDeleteThose lovely ornaments do deserve a tree. I’d want to leave it out all year!
ReplyDeleteMy favorite thing, I think is that (copper?) stamped leaf. But it is a unique collection of things and some of them might look very nice suspended from a branch hung horizontally high on the wall. They are works of art. Let the countdown to NEXT Christmas begin!
ReplyDeleteHello, discovered your blog when googling a Going Gently BBC production, not read back very far yet so I don't know what your situation is apart from a marriage that ended.
ReplyDeleteDue to my own circumstances I hadn't the heart for a Christmas tree this year but a friend has given me an idea that you might want to use so that you can use some of your lovely collection this year....
I'm having a New Year, New Start tree, just a few branches from the garden with some of my more rustic ornaments. Nothing glittery or sparkly but just something to signify a beginning after a sad ending.
Looking forward to reading more on here, Happy New Year.
Jan8
We will remind you! That you have promised a tree. And...as you are out on your 2024 adventures, it will be fun to add an ornament souvenir, making good new memories.
ReplyDeleteI love the sweet little bird on the bottom right, with speckled wings. I adore bird ornaments. LIke you, I'm thinking I'll have a tree again next year. I might even go crazy and get a real one.
ReplyDeleteI am holding you to your promise of a tree next year. You are allowing your ex to punish you!
ReplyDeleteThere have been years that I didn't feel like doing Christmas at all but forged ahead because I think once I stop celebrating it is the beginning of the end for me.
I somehow lost all of my ornaments a few years ago: antiques, handmade etc. I don't know where they could be and they hold so many memories. So for the last 2 years my tree has been all silver and aqua ornaments. It is very pretty but just not the same.
No, that sounds like the voice of experience to me. There comes a point when you have to recognise dwelling on painful people and experiences of the past just gives them the thought bubble and the oxygen to hurt you again. Until you realise you have to leave all that behind because if you don't there is no going forward.
DeleteExactly YL..and it is such a relief when one moves on!
DeleteWhat a great idea!
ReplyDeleteFor now you have a Christmasy table.
ReplyDeleteYou're moving forwards, John. The ones from your sister seem very symbolic...gifting them to save until the right time. We'll remember about the tree next year and send you a decoration : ) You may find you have many sent by your readers from all over the world! Looking forward to 2024 and all the adventures it will bring! (and still have the Feliz Navidad worm in my head, lol) Louise X
ReplyDeleteGreat decision. A tree fully decorated will greet you every day through the holidays. I bet you loved having a tree and bringing back the tradition is perfect. Nice decorations too.
ReplyDeleteSounds like a good plan!
ReplyDeleteGood choice! And the special ornaments that have meaning are the most important, we have a lot of those we've collected over the years and those are the ones that truly "make" the tree.
ReplyDeleteI congratulate you on a most excellent and healthy decision and thaose 38 ornaments are a good start! You deserve happiness in all its shapes, flavors, and sizes because you're you, John.
ReplyDeleteHugs!
Oh! And the lower branches will need unbreakable ornaments! to cope with the family who may not know to be caredul. :)
DeleteI'm so excited for you! Seems 2024 has much to look forward to. A cat (black?) will join your household, a trip to NYC, and a tree at Christmas for your wonderful & meaningful ornaments.
ReplyDeleteStay safe & well, John dear.
Good for you, John. All your gifts and decorations, given with love, deserve a tree to go on next year. My tiny tree ,with the crochet angel topper bought in Grenada over 25 years ago has been put away for another year. I am glad I put her up again this year as I wasn’t going to bother. Gigi
ReplyDeleteJohn this is good news indeed! Jackie
ReplyDeleteYus! Heeeeeeeeeeee's baaaaack!
ReplyDeleteJo in Auckland
I choose to lick my wounds - always have - then hey presto -everything's lovely and I'm dancing again - Magic x 🦄
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Deleteclearly above your comprehension
Deletetrue to form flis, replying to anon
DeleteAnd next year's tree will make us all happy!
ReplyDelete- i have the same brussels sprout ornament (my favorite veggie)! Happy New Year John!
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