Now it’s time to return to work with all of its disciplines and routines and all of the ponderings have to be put back into action.
Words are nothing
Actions are everything
The easy objectives have now been achieved .
My nest is feathered the way I would like ; I have survived full time employment for exactly a year now And mentally I’m on an even keel with friends and pastimes filling the void that was husband.
And so I can now concentrate on my weight and my health.
It’s time.
I’m a comfort eater and drinker
Behaviours learned from some family that never had anything and from others who couldn’t cope with anything.
Feeding others also gives me pleasure
and when you are feeding others invariably you are feeding yourself.
It’s also easy to let things go when your tired and 58 and you don’t like yourself very much.
Divorces don’t do a lot for your self esteem
Especially a divorce you didn’t want.
But people do pull themselves up by those proverbial bra straps and when you are smiling again, there’s time enough and space enough to get yourself physically well again
And so it’s back to work. With healthy lunches and supper already prepared at home.
There’s no gin and tonic when the ritual of blog replying commences
And there’s an effort to reverse that patten of late night film watching where books are now being read much more than re runs of zombie box sets are being watched.
It’s time
Does that make sense?
So I will blog today about Paloma Faith’s “ Better Than This”
And more importantly about Master KG’s “ Jeruselema ”
Which is a bloody joyous song
And is one I will be dancing to in the Cubana Bar in Sheffield , some day soon
Dorothy and I up the Gop this morning
Ohhh Love Paloma Faith!
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm glad you've been tackling all those things one by one. I think peace of mind after such a life-altering event is essential. Now that things seem to have calmed down (love your house, btw), maybe it's time to so other self-improvement. Besides, eating healthy always makes us feel better, no?
XOXO
Virtuous lol
DeleteJerusalema is wonderful! And you're doing fabulously
ReplyDeleteIs so joyous
DeleteLovely, joyous videos to accompany this turning point blogpost. I especially liked the little girl at the front in her pink leggings.
ReplyDeleteThe priest was in his groove, he didn’t notice her lol
DeleteWill we be reading about long dog walks in the future? There are always changes to make in the nest, the lasting changes are inside job. Remember the best . . . well you know the rest.
ReplyDeleteTwo long ones today david
DeleteI am not religious, but 'to everything there is a season' seems to me to be a very sensible way to think about life and has got me through some hard times. When the time is right for something you can feel it, just like you can feel the changing of the seasons.
ReplyDeleteNicely put
DeleteGood grieve, why do I only know your blog since a few months??? A big digital kiss on the cheek from me.
ReplyDeleteCheers chuck
Deletedorothy looks happy to be out on a walk.
ReplyDeleteShe was hysterical as always
DeleteI always think of September as a fresh start! I wish you well!
ReplyDeleteLike school
DeleteGood luck on this new journey. Be gentle.
ReplyDeleteSounds like a solid plan. I find that all goes down better with a buddy, whether it's someone to climb the Gop with once a week, or promising to share a plate of your dinner in thanks for a favor. (I hated cooking for one, but you seem to do it no problem. Maybe it's easier when you're not in the land of Family Size and Mega Ultra Extra Large packs of ingredients.)
ReplyDeleteI’m using small plates
DeleteThis weekend i read some of your old blogs when the hurting began and you’ve come a long way John Gray. ♥️
ReplyDeletePatty
I’ve read them too ....an uneasy read
DeleteGood for you. It's always good to take stock and see where we can make improvements. I'm not giving up my G&Ts, though. :)
ReplyDeleteNor am I . Totally lol
DeleteYou time now. You are ready.
ReplyDeleteI just wish you loved and appreciated you as much as others do (the story of so many of our lives, I guess). I'm glad I cut back on my drinking a long time ago because now two drinks are as much as I can handle. As for eating, I STOP when I'm stressed/depressed/despairing. I'm not allowed to do that anymore, but if I'm alone and in control, it's what I do.
ReplyDeleteHabits habits
DeleteThose Franciscans know how to parTAY!
ReplyDeleteLast night I imagined the pleasure you would have when you came downstairs this morning to behold your lovely sitting room. :)
ReplyDeleteLoved the videos and that soaring music - ta! Hope they were a hint at how you feel about yourself inside. As Neil Degrasse Tyson said, "We're made of star-stuff!" and that is no small thing.
Wishing you well on your plan to kindly take better care of yourself. I've been losing weight slowly and by intention using my sweet MIL's method: Eat a bit less, move more. It works.
Hugs!
I have just discoveed there's such a thing as alcohol free spirits, that are also low carb... am wondering if they are worth the expense... Imagine a guilt free g&t... mm I would love that! You have accomplished so very much that I have no doubt you will have success on the health front as well! Nice shot of you and Dot.
ReplyDeleteI do have an addiction with diet coke
DeleteTo quote a movie...Get Your Groove back.
ReplyDeleteWork it sister x
DeleteI used alcohol for about 25 years-then decided to stop altogether when I was 50 because it was becoming too much of a habit.I can't just have the odd one.I don't miss it really and there are the calories to be aware of and the munchies too-my waist is smaller and skin nicer.Your Body is a Temple John to be worshiped x
ReplyDeleteAnd it’s expensive.....like all savory quicknfood
DeleteSounds like a good idea.
ReplyDeleteDoesn’t it?
DeleteYou know what you want and you are on a good path. Your garden transformation and now home decor changes show beautiful changes that reflect your choices and good taste. Beautifully done.
ReplyDeleteYou are worth caring about, John. I'm glad you know that.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard, when in the middle of trauma and heartbreak, to remember that you, all by yourself, are worthy of love. Especially hard after a stunning rejection. I'm so happy for you that you are turning the corner and putting yourself first.
Also, those nuns and priests are having a great time! Dancing is so joyful, I hope you do some dancing soon!
The priest in the front gave it roscoe did he not?
DeleteGet ready, change is a coming!
ReplyDeleteAlready here
Delete"And mentally I’m on an even keel with friends and pastimes..." are the best words here; while "...and you don’t like yourself very much" are the ones to sweep away; if you will forgive my intrusion. I wish you good times John. Most of us have to wade through a murky swamp at some times in out lives, sometimes at several times. As an ex-Samaritan you probably should remember what you have said to others, and be kind to yourself. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteAnd I have been, just a final battle in a war Andrew xx
DeleteHow are you getting on with your cycling? Some days I hate going out on my bike but I always feel better and full of energy and righteous when I get home. Then I spoil it by eating cake.
ReplyDeleteIt’s getting a service and a new wheel
DeleteDoing that dancing twice a day ought to do it for you, John!! WHere is this parish? I would join it in a flash just for the dancing!! Not interested in what they have to say.
ReplyDeleteOnce those 'endorphins' get released you are all set!!
DeleteI’m practicing in private x
DeleteKeep those hips loose John x
DeleteIt does take a year to sort one's head. You've done well.
ReplyDeleteAfter second divorce, I dove into work and school. Finished my masters in my mid fifties and children grown. I flooded the market with my new resume and got myself a snazzy new high paying job with travel. I flashed my badge at airport check-in and other high security clearance entries. I was on top of the world for a few years until retirement. What a ride on life's roller coaster. I never looked back at ex husbands...good riddance I said even tho it hurt like the dickens.
ReplyDeleteIt takes a long time to get used to new habits and ways of doing things. Every day is a new opportunity to steer the ship in the direction you would like it to go. It can still be run into heavy seas and squalls and fog, but you just keep righting it and you will get there.
ReplyDeleteMakes perfect sense to me. We have just about finished our winter here in NZ and what with the beast that is Covid 19 it feels like I have been suffocating for 5 months. I can smell the changes in the air although Covid 19 is still rearing it's ugly head. Spring for me is the time of change; in the gardens; in the house and in me. Time to throw of the shackles of brown comfort food and embrace light zingy healthy flavours and give up the grog for a while. That always helps the waistline. Those nuns and priests sure know how to boogie. Wonderful to watch. And as gz above said ..You've done well.
ReplyDeleteJo in Auckland
To see you blossoming as you yourself is a joy because you are an inspiration to us all. The bookcase looks great, by the way!
ReplyDeleteI like the positive feel to todays blog xx
ReplyDeleteI look at your blog the first thing every day.i am so happy for the direction your life has taken. Keep going.
ReplyDeleteYou've come so far in the past year and you should be quite proud of yourself! I am happy for you! And I love that picture of you and Dorothy on up on the Gop.
ReplyDeleteGlad to read that you are doing well. It has been a rocky year, and you have survived. Onward! PS: The videos are great!!
ReplyDeleteYou're on your way back up...well on the way. A daily walk up the Gop will get you fitter, and make you feel better. I know what you mean about the trap of feeding people; but you can cut lots of calories out of most recipes with a bit of ingenuity and they still taste just as good.
ReplyDeleteDancing to Jeruselema at the Cabana bar in Sheffield sounds like a fun time to aspire to lovely to see you in this frame of mind you have survived and the future is yours John.
ReplyDeleteIt's as though you've left sorting yourself out until last because you know this will be your finest achievement. Good luck ... you can do this ♥️
ReplyDeleteAmen love. I don't want to make this about me but reading this makes me realise I need to also get a grip. Living on chocolate while nursing a bad back as well as the already bad knee is just miserable. I've been thinking about eating better, I really want to lose 20kgs, but I am so over dieting it always makes me so miserable. But I have to look at the bigger picture, so to speak! thank you for sharing your thoughts, they resonate around the world <3
ReplyDeleteYes, yes, and yes. I can march along nicely in the water. My goal is to be marching just as well on land.
ReplyDeleteYou've come a long way John. Good luck with your healthy plans. I starting walking every day at the start of lockdown, I've continued since my school reopened in May. I need to tackle the healthy eating bit next. My lockdown comfort eating continues ! Sarah x
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