I wasn't there long.
I walked to the cliff top and realised quite suddenly that I didn't really need to be around old memories and a past life
So I said a goodbye, and went on to Margate.
The man at the hotel reception booked a taxi for me to get to the crematorium on time and told me that the Turner Centre opened at 10 am .
He was kind but looked harassed,
Someone had stolen his hanging baskets
Stolen hanging baskets? See. I told you that Margate was like Rhyl!
ReplyDeleteI know that feeling when it hits. Nothing very nice at all except all part of a journey.
ReplyDeletexoxxo
ReplyDeleteYou there for the weekend then? Hope all goes well. Daft thing to say, but you know what I mean.
ReplyDeleteI couldn't afford the cost of the trains tomorrow
DeleteOne night in Paris
DeleteOh forgot, it's Margate.
DeleteAlways best not to stir up painful memories.
ReplyDeleteBut best to lay them to rest on your own terms eh?
DeleteTrains in Kent - you can see why there's no money left for the North.
ReplyDeleteThe fast train from st Pancras is very impressive x
DeleteIf it's not cancelled.
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DeleteCynic
I have experience of that train
DeleteFor a moment I was expecting a tale of you purchasing new underwear, but then I remembered you recently bought your quota for the decade.
ReplyDeleteSending you a hug x
Yes two pairs a year IS excessive
DeleteAfter all you always managed easily with one pair
DeleteActually I always needed a spare
DeletePrince Skidmark of Trelawnyd
DeleteIt will get better.
ReplyDeleteparsnip xx
Bravo. And a hug in any underwear.
ReplyDeleteHugs.
ReplyDeleteAnd how glad I am that the man at reception could be kind despite his own troubles.
You were wise to recognize what you don't (or do) need, and simply leave. Tomorrow I hope you are as caring of yourself. Remember what you're there for, a tribute to a man that is no longer alive, you aren't going in order to impress anyone. Should things feel awkward or difficult for you at any point in time, you are free to step outside, consider if you want to go back in or leave. Doing the right thing includes taking care of yourself, just taking the trip and making an appearance will have been more than enough for you to feel good about it all going forward. Be as gentle with yourself as I wish everyone would be with you, xxoo - Mary
ReplyDeleteThat was then this is now. Hope everything goes as well as it can. And don't forget to give some of your kindness to yourself as well. You are fantastic with everyone else now time to be careful of yourself "a little selfishness" for your own preservation never hurt. Its just that when you are a giver it does not come naturally. Tomorrow is another day brave heart. Hugs Pattypan xx
ReplyDeleteYou are doing the right, but brave, thing to do. You won't regret it - ever. Chin up, pay respects and walk away. Your new life awaits... xx
ReplyDeleteMourn the man you knew and the past and move along. Best wishes to you.
ReplyDeleteI think Margate is a going to have a rebirth. It also has the best fish and chips I ever had.
Good on you for recognizing that you did not need to revisit old memories in Broadstairs a true awakening well done. Chin up just get through the day.
ReplyDeleteSounds like a point of closure, finding those are important to reach.
ReplyDeleteYou're a good man, John, and the old man appreciated it.
ReplyDeleteA person who knows himself and what is best or hurtful for himself has a gift.
ReplyDeleteI hope it all goes to plan John, realising when to move on is a good thing.
ReplyDeleteJo in Auckland
I believe that in another place, Richard will know that you have made this uncomfortable journey because you loved and respected him, and you will love and respect yourself for making it. You're not on your own there are dozens of blog friends 'with you' and wishing you well, who respect you for going.
ReplyDeleteAn emotional day for you.
ReplyDeleteStealing hanging baskets beggars belief.
Thinking of you today John x
ReplyDeleteHi hun, *hugs* for today.goldensunflower x
ReplyDeleteSometimes it's good to go briefly to a place you thought you still loved and lay the past to rest. I did something very similar last week. A 'goodbye' visit to a place that held a special place in your heart and past helps to set the future in motion.
ReplyDeleteHope all goes well today. Xx
Yes sue, a laying to rest on my terms
DeleteIn a completely different context, I thought that I wanted to visit an old place to see how I felt about it so I 'visited' it on Google Earth. I had a good look around the streets and saw the places that held memories. I don't need to go there in person now, it's done.
DeleteWishing you well today John.
Hope all goes as well as it can and then you can leave it behind and go forward. Sending you a hug.
ReplyDeleteBe there with dignity and remembering a friend passed.
ReplyDeleteGlad the receptionist could help..but so sad about his hanging baskets..something that costs little in time and money to make
I'm thinking of you today, laying many things to rest xxx
ReplyDeleteAnd be sure not to let anything upset you.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. You’re a good man... There, I’ve sad it again. I hate when someone I don’t know messes with my basket.
ReplyDeleteYou always spoke very kindly of your ex-mother-in-law so I do hope she will respect you for attending the funeral and greet you kindly.
ReplyDeleteI hoped so too
DeleteWho steals hanging baskets?! Honestly.
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