Yesterday was the day I was going to make the fateful decision about Meg
It just so happened to coincide with my nursing night shift...a night shift that saw us move into a brand new , all singing and all dancing Critical Care Unit......
It's like the original Jurassic Park.....no expense was spared.......frigging hell.....there was even a machine that reads the finger prints of the nurses and dispenses medication in a sort of game show way...........but we didn't know where anything was!
All night, all I could see was nurses hurrying around like loons shouting things like " where are the frigging saline ampules ? !!!!" at each other!
Anyhow
Because the rosy faced vet wasn't available yesterday, I had arranged to speak to her today.....so with a heavy heart I came home this morning wondering just how Meg was faring ...another refusal of food.....more weight lost..........another curled up, sick looking dog and the conversation with the vet would be a sad, fraught one......
Another day...another roller coaster of emotions.
As it happened....my offer of a half dozen chicken meatballs from the Spar, went down as welcomed as well thumbed copy of "50 Shades of Gray" at the Llanasa Women's Institute.....Meg ate every one, and even Managed to take a large chunk of a jumbo sausage for good measure!
Ok, she had had the shits...but that seemed all........I can cope with the shits.....especially after the shift I had at the hospital!
Like I said it's a roller coaster ride of emotions.
And so, she clambered up onto my knee as I dozed on the couch. Her eyes are milky, but alert.....and her affect is brighter ...it's almost as if she knew that today wasn't going to be the day we took that final trip to the vets.
Hey ho.....
It just so happened to coincide with my nursing night shift...a night shift that saw us move into a brand new , all singing and all dancing Critical Care Unit......
It's like the original Jurassic Park.....no expense was spared.......frigging hell.....there was even a machine that reads the finger prints of the nurses and dispenses medication in a sort of game show way...........but we didn't know where anything was!
All night, all I could see was nurses hurrying around like loons shouting things like " where are the frigging saline ampules ? !!!!" at each other!
Anyhow
Because the rosy faced vet wasn't available yesterday, I had arranged to speak to her today.....so with a heavy heart I came home this morning wondering just how Meg was faring ...another refusal of food.....more weight lost..........another curled up, sick looking dog and the conversation with the vet would be a sad, fraught one......
Another day...another roller coaster of emotions.
As it happened....my offer of a half dozen chicken meatballs from the Spar, went down as welcomed as well thumbed copy of "50 Shades of Gray" at the Llanasa Women's Institute.....Meg ate every one, and even Managed to take a large chunk of a jumbo sausage for good measure!
Ok, she had had the shits...but that seemed all........I can cope with the shits.....especially after the shift I had at the hospital!
Like I said it's a roller coaster ride of emotions.
And so, she clambered up onto my knee as I dozed on the couch. Her eyes are milky, but alert.....and her affect is brighter ...it's almost as if she knew that today wasn't going to be the day we took that final trip to the vets.
I'm glad to hear she's getting her appetite back! :-)
ReplyDeleteOh John that is good to hear that Meg had rallied . I kept thinking of the trip to the vets and I am so happy to hear she ate and has had a good day . Glad you survived your shift at work .
ReplyDeleteAh, bless her :)
ReplyDeleteA large chunk of jumbo sausage always helps doesn't it John ??? !!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteSo pleased that Meg is a little brighter . XXXX
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DeleteShe will let you know when it is time, John, and it will be when you can cope with what needs to be done. Meanwhile, for now, you have your Meg with you in life.......Vx
ReplyDeleteEach extra hour is a blessing, but they really know how to prolong the agony don't they!
ReplyDeleteHugs and ear tickles to Meg! X
Blimey John, you're going through a real roller coaster of emotions aren't you? She does look a lot brighter sitting there on your knee, let's hope it continues.
ReplyDeleteDifficult times for you John, But isn't she a beauty!
ReplyDeleteWhat a ride you are on.
ReplyDeleteHugs.
Glad to see that that cocktail of drugs is working to give you both a bit of extra time together.
ReplyDeleteAll this mental energy expended in not knowing which way poor Meg is going to go must be exhausting, it hardly needs saying. You're never far from our thoughts, J.G.
ReplyDeletewell said and so true on all thoughts......
DeleteThank you for putting it into words so beautifully Raybeard.
DeleteWell said. Hugs to Meg and to you John.
DeleteIndeed. Well said, Ray.
DeleteI'm only speaking for what we all feel, dear ladies (is that word acceptable?), but much thanks anyway. Now let's all think about J.G. and little Meg again.
DeleteRaybeard has put into words exactly what I was thinking. Love to you both. xx
ReplyDeleteI have just been reassuring someone today that you have to take each day as it comes don't you. You can think and plan and make all kinds of decisions, but you still have to take each day as it comes. You never know what will be around the next corner do you. I am glad that you and Meg have another day together. As far as work, sounds like chaos! Hope it is better next shift!
ReplyDeleteThey know, trust me, they know. These treasured days of grace are a gift from her to you.
ReplyDeleteI am so happy for Meg and for you. As to the shits that may be because of the antibiotics. My cat had a bad case of the runs after her last antibiotics. Hugs!
ReplyDeletegreat news!
ReplyDeletei was wondering about her all of my Wednesday and all of yours, too.
I hope you really enjoy the new unit once you get through the teething pains
Take care and enjoy every hour
ReplyDeletePoor gal.... give her a tickle from me. x
ReplyDeleteI thought about meg all day wednesday. you get to fuss over her for another day. sweet old girl.
ReplyDeleteHad a sweet pup for 13 years. She got so sick one February that I took days off to sit with her in the treatment area at the vets and transported her to an emergency clinic at night so she could be near medical care if needed quickly. She was diabetic and had pancreas problems and terrible reflux. She rallied and we went back home. Three months later she stopped eating and wouldn't take her walks. You could see how sick she was. When I took her to the vet to let him send her across the bridge, he told me she had been ready to go and was just waiting for me tell her it was okay. I held her as he put her "to sleep" and while it was so hard, the vet said it meant a lot to animals not to be afraid...that we loved them in life and loved them in death. Prayers to you .
ReplyDeleteRoller coaster indeed, I've been awol recently as my Mum has spent 2 and a half weeks in a critical care unit, thankfully she is a real trooper and has received the best care ever and is fighting back on an ordinary surgical ward now. I thought of you several times John while I was having a quiet sniffle by her bedside and while we were in the family room receiving worse case scenarios. The nurses were thankfully just like you, caring and professional at all times and we are so grateful.
ReplyDeleteAnyhoo, love to Meg and take each day as it comes, I've found that to be a useful mantra recently.
Twiggy x
This has certainly been a roller coaster ride for your readers John. Every day I open your post with trepidation wondering if today is the day and hoping so much that it isn't. Is Chris home soon? I wouldn't like to think of you facing the decision about Meg alone. x
ReplyDeleteOh, I'm feeling for you, John. I really am.
ReplyDeleteGod bless her....she's trying so hard for you.
ReplyDeleteI would love to see a world map with what would surely be the vast number of threads indicating Meg followers that would reach from each country to your village in Wales.
ReplyDeleteA peaceful Thursday to you and Meg.
I echo Simone. She articulates my own thoughts perfectly.
ReplyDeleteWe all sit and wait for the daily Meg updates ....and how relieved to hear she is taking food ....Blessings to you both today. Get your rest and take care of you too.
ReplyDeleteBlessings to you both.
ReplyDeleteOne more day...one more blessing...
ReplyDeleteEach day is a good day
ReplyDeleteWhat a roller coaster John - each day is a bonus though.
ReplyDeleteMay you continue to find the tidbits and delicacies that Meg wants to eat.
ReplyDeleteAh, the candle burning brightest before it goes out. I'm glad she rallied and you two had a cuddle. It's so hard to let go.
ReplyDeleteWhen our first cat was crossing the bridge, our vet told us the reason she stayed so long was because of the love. She simply didn't want to leave us behind anymore than we wanted her to go. I've a feeling Meg feels the same way.
xx
She is loved, and knows it. I hope she has many more days of tidbits and cuddles with you....
ReplyDeleteSweet Meg.
~Jo
I can picture patients in urgent need all over the place, suffocating, having a heart attack, while game show machines pling and shoot medications at them, with panicked nurses running around clutching their faces in despair. I probably shouldn't find that funny.
ReplyDeleteBless her tender heart, and yours.
ReplyDeleteLisa x
Your words are my thoughts exactly ... well said, Sheila.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad she is eating and has perked up a bit. Give her a hug for me. xoxo
ReplyDeleteDon't you just love change in the workplace?!
Thank god for that. My heart was in my mouth when I saw that title. Good girl Meg, you keep going my girl and get stronger xx
ReplyDeleteKeep her happy John. I always worry when an animals ears don't prick up and aren't alert and the light in their eyes fade. Meg won't pine away because she knows she's loved.
ReplyDeleteEvery day counts, John. [Shitty or not]
ReplyDeleteWell John, it's a funny old world isn't it.x
ReplyDeleteNo.
DeleteShe's lucky she has someone in the medical field for a "dad" -- you won't be easily shocked by bodily fluids. Seriously, I'm glad she's looking up. :)
ReplyDeleteShe looks contented, sitting there on your knee. Good to hear she's enjoying her food.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you both
Take every extra minute you can with her John. Glad to hear that she's a little better.
ReplyDeleteSo glad the two of you had a nice moment.
ReplyDeleteI'm feeling for you John and almost don't want to read the next post in case its bad news. Lets hope she keeps going for you. By the way you might like the photo on my post today, its a young bulldog.
ReplyDeleteBriony
x
My heart is breaking for both of you. Give her a gentle hug from me and one for yourself. Whatever the outcome, no-one could say she hasn't been loved or well cared for, bless her xxx
ReplyDeleteOh, I'm so glad. I was scared for her (and you).
ReplyDeleteShe's saying, "Not yet, dearie...not quite yet."
ReplyDeleteShe loves you John. Not ready.
ReplyDeletecheers, parsnip
Again i have been lax in replying to everyone....tom stephenson will be muttering about my rudness very soon.........
ReplyDeleteAll this is getting a little tiring ....i can do with some light humour ..failing that a gentle giggle would do me
Please don't think I don't feel for you and for Meg, John. I'm just a bit too emotional lately to visit here often while your sweet girl is on the decline. I'm glad she's enjoying her treats and is being looked after with so much love.
ReplyDeleteMore time for love.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Janie
Awww darling Meg, God love her.....
ReplyDeleteJo in Auckland, NZ
John she is just beautiful.......your lap is the best place for her right now. Thinking of you both.
ReplyDeleteThe promise of a few chicken meatballs would keep me around longer also. Keep tempting her, John.
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely picture, she's a classy gal isn't she? Thoughts with you every day!
ReplyDeleteDear John,
ReplyDeletefriends in blogland will weep with you, and hold you hand when the inevitable moment arrives. Know you are not alone, even though the world feels empty.
Look at that little, cute face! x
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