I’m in Mark’s & Spencer’s cafe.
Grabbing breakfast with the other grey hairs before I go to my last supervision of my student hood .
I will miss my supervisor, who is insightful, calm, focused and unflowery.
I can’t bullshit her, or myself when I’m with her.
I feel, when she looks at me, she sees the real me
That was disconcerting to start with
Her professionalism has made me more professional.
After supervision I’m going to finish off my counselling paperwork,( which is considerable)
Tomorrow I have my final three clients which will put my counselling hours to 103
Friday my portfolio will be submitted
They have no avocado on toast in the cafe
I sigh theatrically
They never do
The cashier looks at me the way that Weaver does,
Through narrow eyes
When I pause , trying to work the carbs out in the other breakfast on offer
I’m not having the attitude this morning
“ I’m a new diabetic , I have to be careful” I told her
She smiled weakly
Which said, I just can’t be arsed