One Day


 

A quiet day , it’s cold tonight, 
So cold that I’ve made butter bean and chorizo soup
And cold enough for Bun to knee sit
Watching Zulu Dawn 
Humm preferred Zulu
Where’s Nigel Green when you needed him




Date

 I told you I had been on a sort of date yesterday.
It was an impromptu meeting arranged after a brief and light social media conversation.
And unlike that awful last date I had after Covid 
( 2 hours of my life I will never get back in one lifetime)
I enjoyed chatting with this new guy for over two hours.
He was attractive, obviously bright,  somewhat serious but interesting
And for the first time, in a long while I thought I’d like to chat to him again.

As we left the cafe, he turned and gave me a hug and suddenly I read the room
I felt as though I had come to the end of an interview, where I was told subtlety I hadn’t got the job
And a good natured goodbye, had just been issued.

A text later confirmed my non verbal cue
And although I’m not beating myself ( or him) up for anything
I do feel a little deflated today
Hey ho

Ps

 


Pride

 A gay dad explains Pride to his son


Nothing else needs saying

There’s nothing sadder than a damp Drag Queen

 



I went to Prestatyn Pride to support.
Sometimes you forget how parochial the coastal towns are in their thinking, but several comments on the event’s Facebook page reinforced to me, attitudes I thought went out in the 1990 s.
Last night I found myself answering questions like

Why can’t there be straight Pride?
What’s it teaching our kids ?
And finally
Why do you gays need to celebrate having sex?
( chance would be a fine thing)



The parade was led by a very uncomfortable looking mayor and his droopy flag, and comprised of around sixty people, which is a start I suppose. A local pub had organised the days’ entertainment , and the place looked crowded enough.
Sadly it pissed down

Janet met me and Roger to watch. And I’m  now sat in the storyhouse in Chester on a sort of date

Unexpected and welcomed

Hey ho

Moon River



 The West Cheshire Hospital in Chester was the old asylum. Before that it was called Diva, the Roman word for the city. Essentially it comprised of the main 1829 Georgian building with scores of satellite two story wards connected by brick built corridors which gave visitors the sense  that you were in fact underground.Those corridors were long and dark a creepy and as a student nurse, I negotiated them always in a hurry.

One night, after 8 pm, in winter, I was walking up that corridor from Whitby ward, when I heard singing. A woman was singing Moon River gently to herself somewhere ahead of me. The voice was elderly and faltering, but because of the acoustics had a certain emotional power to it and every time I turned a corner I expected to see a patient , who was probably late for curfew, walking back to her ward.

But I saw no one
I just heard the voice always a little way ahead 

Two drifters off to see the world,
There’s such a lot of world to see
We’re after the same rainbows end 
Waiting round the bend 
My Huckleberry friend
Moon River
And me”

And it stopped when I reached the main corridor and the sliding green door which lead to the nurses home, beyond the Church.

Doggy hugs and The FLOWER SHOW ( not forgetting the novelty vegetable photograph)

 

It’s that time again readers The Flower And Produce Show is only 8 weeks away., please join us in entering any class you want , but especially join in with the international novelty vegetable photo section 
Your photos can be sent to me Via email to jgsheffield@icloud.com



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Ive seen two of my counselling clients for the last time this morning 
My final clients before I hopefully qualify

It’s been a month of endings 
Sorry to bang on about it but
Tomorrow I will find out if I qualify in July..three years….

I was tired and spent when I got home
Overwhelmed and a bit emotional

I went to trendy Carol’s to pick up the Welsh and
As I walked through the gate they saw me from their place on their own sofa in the conservatory and immediately jumped up

Roger galloped over excitedly , his ears flapping his face smiling
With Mary tottering behind him as quickly as she could 
Her feet as delicate as a ballerina’s, her eyes serious     

And the Welsh hug I received from both of them was the very best thing 
Ever………..

Marks’

 I’m in Mark’s & Spencer’s cafe. 
Grabbing breakfast with the other grey hairs before I go to my last supervision of my student hood . 
I will miss my supervisor, who is insightful, calm, focused and unflowery. 
I can’t bullshit her, or myself when I’m with her.
I feel, when she looks at me, she sees the real me
That was disconcerting to start with
Her professionalism has made me more professional.
After supervision I’m going to finish off my counselling paperwork,( which is considerable) 
Tomorrow I have my final three clients which will put my counselling hours to 103
Friday my portfolio will be submitted
They have no avocado on toast in the cafe
I sigh theatrically
They never do
The cashier looks at me the way that Weaver does,
Through narrow eyes
When I pause , trying to work the carbs out in the other breakfast on offer
I’m not having the attitude this morning
“ I’m a new diabetic , I have to be careful” I told her
She smiled weakly
Which said, I just can’t be arsed