Another lisping choir’s performance and one I enjoyed from the back row just over Silvia’s left shoulder.
I’ve wrapped Christmas gifts today and sent them.
And have written some of Trelawnyd Productions recently commissioned Christmas Cards
Fuck me we are becoming a franchise
I’ve also sent Nu a copy of Kathy Burke’s autobiography a Mind Of My Own , not because it is Christmas soon , but because I enjoyed it so much.
I suddenly remembered it was nephew Leo’s birthday today , and I was annoyed that I had forgotten it…
I sent money via on line banking and messaged him with instructions to spend it on comics and film tickets.
He sounded cheerful 😃😃😃
I can’t shake the blues today, even though I’ve been busy…..
To chase away a virus inducing sense of loneliness , I’ve made spiced Italian bean soup with pancetta and smoky paprika and have cooked spiced chips laced with garlic and curry powder . I’ve drunk lemon juice spiked lemsip and spent far too long in a hot showerAnd I had a good cry with Roger on my knee, over nothing more than a face lick.
Hey ho xx
On reflection , I know where today’s mood came from.
I’ve recently complained to the Post Office that I suspect we residents down Cwm Road are getting deliveries just once a week. I was asked to clarify my worries last night, in a phone to a chirpy woman full of apologies and good humour.
Are there other house residents worried about their post?
She asked and I told her that I lived alone
So nobody else?…….she repeated and I fell into that trap and said, almost apologetically
No it’s only me
What a wonderful Christmas card by Trelawnyd Productions!
ReplyDeleteYour soup sounds absolutely delicious, and the spiced chips too.
Some days you need a good cry.
Stay safe, well, and be kind to yourself, John dear.
Hugs to you, and the furry ones.
Next year we will sell them them to the public
DeleteThe choir are cheerful but sometimes feeling lonely just gets the better of you. Enjoy a cosy evening at home.
ReplyDeleteYes Joanne , so right
DeleteSome days we just feel down, for no reason. I find a good cry quite therapeutic at times. It's as if all the little niggles and cares build up and up until they just have to burst out. I hope your crying and Roger cuddling helped.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure Leo will enjoy spending his birthday money.
The Christmas card looks good. T-shirts, tea towels, calendars (not nude ones, please!) and mugs next, perhaps?
xx
Xxx thank u
Delete'Waterloo' is always a delight no matter where you hear it. I'm glad you got to be with the lisping choir when they sang and played it.
ReplyDeleteYour soup sounds delicious. I had Campbell's Homestyle Chicken Noodle soup for lunch because I'm under the weather (bother) and it's been raining cats and dogs. DH feels crumby, too, so wonder if we've got the same thing?
Yes, "tears show clear what the heart holds dear." Dog kisses and cuddles help a lot.
Hope tomorrow is better in every way for all of us.
Hugs!
Homemade soup is the panacea of most ills
DeleteI don't know if there is comfort in knowing that loneliness comes to everyone - whether in a relationship or not. A good cry will often help and it doesn't hurt to remember that this too shall pass. So much of life is not as we thought it would be, and that includes the good with the bad. I'm always trying to come to terms with that. Hang in there. XO
ReplyDeleteI’m only thinking of me and then I’m not going in too deeply in the why’s and wherefores…just feeling things today
DeleteWhen she asked "So nobody else?" you could say "Well, there are others, but they don't read or write so they are immaterial to this problem."
ReplyDeleteMost days you can rationalise things out well, today despite my good intentions I couldn’t,
DeleteI’m brighter now
You don’t live alone, you have two Welsh, two blacks and many friendly ghosts.
ReplyDeleteI miss Albert and I never met him…hod know how I will react when Larry goes!
Chin up lad - you are admired and loved by many.
It was just one of those days when you feel what you feel…..
DeleteI have been having anxiety attacks more and more lately so went to Dr. And she has put me on medication. It has not kicked in yet and today was bad for most of the day. My gardener came and got about 20 bags of leaves and pine needles raked up and we got talking about anxiety. He told me that about half of the young guys he employs are also on anxiety meds. I think both my girls around your age are too. I wish I could have a good cry and it would go away. I know how you feel being lonely. I do hope you are feeling chipper again soon, john. Gigi
ReplyDeleteI feel better now….a good cry and big hug albeit with a smelly Welsh terrier ….i just gave in to things today which isn’t a bad thing
DeleteI'm sorry but when you said, "I live alone," I would think that the asking, "So nobody else?" was quite unnecessary.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry, John. I know those hard times. They feel as if they might never go away. But they do. I swear to you.
Often people verbalise their thoughts without really th8nking
DeleteIn response the chirpy lady, she should check-in with other people living nearby. That's her job.
ReplyDeleteIt's not only you... It's you, Roger, Mary, Bun and Weaver...5 all together.
It's no fun fighting a virus. Tomorrow is bound to be a better day.
No it hasn’t helped…off to bed soon with bun in tow
DeleteIf I feel down I can often track it back to not having eaten so well the day before. Looking after yourself is so important.
ReplyDeleteI’ve eaten well today , homemade soup x
DeleteHugs. Love you John. Marjorie in cold Canada
ReplyDeleteThank you dearHeart x
DeleteLove and hugs from Texas.xxx
ReplyDeleteYour home made soup sounds very good!and will help you to feel better ! Also a hug from your pets ! I miss my hugs from my cat! Only got his little blanket at my side for a hug! Hope you have a good nights rest,and feel much better tomorrow ! Love Mary D. X
ReplyDeleteI had to look up who Kathy Burke is in Wikipedia, but I'm sure I must have seen her in at least some of the TV series and movies she's been in.
ReplyDeleteOh Love, my heart hurt to read this. Wish I could hug you, I'd whisper "I see you" in your ear as I softly rubbed your back. We all need a someone who wants to do that for us, don't we? You've a tender and lovely heart, John.
ReplyDeleteThere's no "only" about you! That lady can get lost.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the recommendation, Kathy B! One of my absolute favorites! I will enjoy that read for sure!
ReplyDeleteFeeling blue is what we do. It may pass, into pink, I hope...Purple might also be good...Darkness of the season, holidays coming up. I get it. I am feeling a little blue, too. I am holding your hand across the big water....
also LOVE the choir rocking out , ABBA!
DeleteThat ending is both clever and poignant.
ReplyDeleteTrust me on this: there is no such thing as a far too long hot shower (unless the hot water runs out ;))
ReplyDeleteSending hugs John.
ReplyDeleteBefore I was able to rise above it, the phrase that always set me on a downward spiral, was having a restaurant hostess preparing to seat me, ask "Just ONE?" as if me eating alone was so "incomplete". When my granddaughters started working in the food industry, I cautioned them to never use that phrase. Now that I am an old lady it doesn't bother me anymore.
ReplyDeleteIf your weather was anything like here yesterday, I'm not surprised you were depressed. Awful. But then in the evening Kimbo and Susie arrived with a Goose for my freezer, and we drank two bottles of wine together!
ReplyDeleteHope today is a better day in every way. A Roger - hug must have gone a little way to help I think.
ReplyDeleteAsking if "it's only you" is a typical customer services question to deflect and alienate you, suggesting you are the only problem and therefore it is you at fault, not the service. I get exactly the same isolationist treatment when I complain about my culture de sacs idle and unconscientious bin men.
ReplyDeleteWe all have down days. Especially when you live alone and have no-one to tease you out of it. I liken it to a bucket of water. All the daily stresses, big or small, add to the bucket, which finally overflows. No especial cause, just a cumulative effect. But let it happen and pass over. Repressing just delays, does not dismiss.
Some days are just down days. It helps to see it for that. A young counsellor at our GP practice told me to just go with down days,not see it as a return to depression. She was right and I try to remember that. The Christmas cards are lovely. I too love Kathy Burke, I must read her book. Carole R.
ReplyDeleteAn attack of the blues is dispiriting. Usually, the next day is better.
ReplyDeleteAnd it was
DeleteI may have told you this story years ago... I knocked the "only" from me years ago. I'd gone out to eat by myself. The waiter asked how many in the party. I said "It's just me." His reply was 'It is never just me." He put his hand on his breast and said "It is I!" and sashayed like an entire theater drama department as he lead me to to my table. It's been more than 25 years and it still makes me smile - and in his honor, have never put 'just' in front of "me" ever since.
ReplyDeleteI have never forgotten this story and I must have read it years ago on John's blog. Thanks for sharing.
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