Thursday, 18 June 2015

Tired & Emotional

I feel tired and emotional.....
No I am not pissed,
I am just tired and emotional
A Night shift, no sleep and vet visits are not compatible
So, its been
Another bout of tests
Another bout of results 
Another bout of coxing a poorly old girl to eat 
and a sad feeling that the future is just about all mapped out


58 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry, John, it's so hard to lose such a lovely, lovely soul. Even if it's only for a while.
    Lee Anna

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  2. Oh John …. group hug and an early night !! XXXX

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  3. Get some sleep, John. (If you can) Bad news is always stressful. Not what you wanted to see the first thing, I know.

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  4. I am so sorry John. x

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  5. :( Please accept this comment as a supportive hug. xx

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  6. They own a piece of your heart always, so sorry.

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  7. Hard - but what is in her best interests supercedes our human requirements. I wish you strength.

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  8. So very sorry to read this. You knew this day was coming but it doesn't matter. When the reality comes it is so hard.
    Many of us and you have been in this place so we understand.
    Try to rest and get some sleep.

    cheers, parsnip

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  9. Lack of sleep makes things so much worse. Take care x

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  10. John, first care for yourself, or you can't take care of others,
    and remember that sometimes, letting go is the greatest act of love.
    Sending strength, and support.
    xx

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  11. John,
    Sending you hugs and prayers.

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  12. I have been listening to a radio serial each night about a dog, narrated by its owner, and sadly tonight's episode had echoes of your blog post.

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  13. I do hope you've had some sleep. I am so sorry. Can you look Meg in the eye and tell her nine is not nearly enough. Keep doing the best you can; it's all she asks.

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  14. Just did that yesterday. Now have my primary vet, the opthamology vet and another at the vet school fighting over Sister's treatments. With her diabetes and the catarac surgery, she now has corneal ulcers (freaking holes in her eyes) and she is my child; I love her just as much. Hang in there as it might well turn around. Much love.

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  15. Very sorry. A sad time indeed .

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  16. So sorry. Losing pets ... it's just so hard.

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  17. May you find peace beyond your sadness.

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  18. {{{{{hugs}}}}} to you and meg. :(

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  19. So very hard. How much we love them.

    XO
    WWW

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  20. Here is something to cheer you up when you're feeling a little better. 610stompers.com. The Macy's parade with their headbands just cracks me up. Perhaps they might be invited to participate in a Welsh garden and flower show.

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  21. oh bless you....having been in that place not so long ago, my heart goes out to you. still, while there's life, there's hope....and, i'm squinting but i think i could see it -- her bloodwork looks okay [ i was an RVT in my past life....and we had that same blood machine ;) ] of course, that doesn't tell the whole story....

    strength to you all...xo

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    1. Her amalyse is out so it looks liver related......shes got another bout of antibiotics to contend with then we shall see

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  22. Oh dear, sending healing vibes. xxx

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  23. Feel for you John.please remember Meg has a good home with you.she has been loved and cared for and respected.when the inevitable happens,take comfort in this.thinking of you and Meg.xx

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  24. So sorry.thinking of you.

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  25. The low Albumin and BUN means liver, as you well know. Not that it will help a lot, but you might give her something for fluid retention, might help with any physical distress.

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    1. There is no water retention or oedema
      She has not been eating for a week so i wonder if thats the bun reading.....there is a mass on or near her liver

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    2. When our first dog was elderly, the vet said for us not to worry until Angel stopped eating. She never missed a meal, and then one day, she did, and we knew. Even though we could see signs of her ageing, none of us wanted to admit what in our hearts we knew.

      I hope you've been able to get some rest. xxx

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  26. Damn. I am so sorry John. Try to get a bit of rest. X

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  27. Hugs to both you and Meg xx

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  28. So sorry you are going through this. Everytime it happens to me I swear the pain is not worth the gift of fur balls. Then I reconsider.

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  29. That is such a shame.

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  30. Hang on in there John. Give her lots of love and care and stay close. If the end of the road is near let it be as gentle as possible and let her know how much you care for her. Dogs lives are shorter than ours and we know that when we take them on - but it makes absolutely no difference to the heartbreak and the worry.

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  31. Oh John, my heart is breaking for you and sweet Meg. XO

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  32. Oh John, long-distance but warm hugs to you and dear old Meg. xx

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  33. John, so very sorry to hear about little Meg, but we hope something can be done for her. All of us with pets have been through the distress you are suffering now, and can feel for you, but it doesn't make it any easier.
    We lost our lovely little spaniel three weeks ago - we found him in the morning, by the bed. Don't know which is worse - forewarning, or the sudden shock of a much loved family pet taken from you when you least expect it. Weaver says it all.
    Hugs for you and Meg.

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  34. More hugs to add to the caring flooding your way.

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  35. "a sad feeling that the future is just about all mapped out"

    Unfortunately it pretty much is for all of us. Surviving life involves trying to live while forgetting that you won't survive it.

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  36. Oh John, I feel for you. Take care x

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  37. Oh John, I feel for you. Take care x

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  38. Get some sleep, John. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Deb

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  39. You have given her the best of lives John, my heart goes out to you.

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  40. Poor Meg hugs from me for both of you xxx

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  41. saying a prayer for her.............

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  42. It's so hard when an innocent loved one is ill, human or beast. You and Meg are in my thoughts.

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  43. I'm so sorry to hear this :-(

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  44. Oh John, you and Chris must be in bits. How very very sad. Beaming you much love xxx

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  45. Sorry John. I hope that you can get some sleep and it will not feel so terrible. Hugs!

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  46. Meg has the best owner a dog could wish for. You are being, (and will be) the kindest carer for her.
    Love to the rest of the gang too.
    xx

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  47. Hugs to you xxxxx

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  48. Oh John....I wish it could be different but it always seems to end up this way doesn't it? Fortify yourself my dear.....I will hold you and Meg in my thoughts.

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  49. So very sorry dear friend....it is never easy to see our babies suffer. Stay close give her lots of love.

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  50. John,

    So sorry to hear about Meg's decline. Its very hard watching a member of your family suffer through an illness. I wish things were different. You and Meg are in my prayers

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